YAY. THEY ARE BACK FROM OBS.
-SCREAMS.

Cherie called me just now. (((((((:
I missed you alot dear.
And the others too.
Rachel! Are you very red?!!!!
HAHAHA ((x
And wendy, did you get dunked!!
And chuyun, i hear you got one sunburn!
:D:D

I'm a happy girl now.
I can hear all the obs stories and be jealous.
And feel sad too.

I started laughing when Cherie mentioned something about someone.
I'm evil, oh well. Whatever.

Went to school for a while just now.
Carbon Nanotube Talk.
LOL Mr eng is plain humour lah.
I laughed alot.
((x

Update later!
Off to cut oth into parts
To upload onto youtube
for miss CHERIE CHONG

YAY. THEY ARE BACK FROM OBS.
-SCREAMS.

Cherie called me just now. (((((((:
I missed you alot dear.
And the others too.
Rachel! Are you very red?!!!!
HAHAHA ((x
And wendy, did you get dunked!!
And chuyun, i hear you got one sunburn!
:D:D

I'm a happy girl now.
I can hear all the obs stories and be jealous.
And feel sad too.

I started laughing when Cherie mentioned something about someone.
I'm evil, oh well. Whatever.

Went to school for a while just now.
Carbon Nanotube Talk.
LOL Mr eng is plain humour lah.
I laughed alot.
((x

Update later!
Off to cut oth into parts
To upload onto youtube
for miss CHERIE CHONG

No school today. Oh the happiness!

Woke up to Avril's sms. Haha have fun trying not to burn down Fort Canning my dear (x

ALERT!
Buttons is the HOTTEST SONG ON EARTH <33333

Horny guys probably watch the video on reruns.
Gosh. They all look goddamn hawt.
And the additional music, made it better.
And Christina Aguilera's Aint No Other Man is quite nice too.

My mom started laughing looking at her interesting moves.
And she also laughed when she realised Teddy Geiger's name.
She finds my taste in music amusing.
And thinks Nick Lachey is French cos of the way we pronounce his name.
And says that May&Choy look very odd. Full of comments, she is.

Caught Dashboard Confessional's Don't Wait. Pretty good.
And i think i hate Kristin from Laguna Beach.
She looks like she went for some surgery.

Move Along by The All American Rejects.
The video's amusing. Because the lead singer,
Looks like an eagle in pain.
Sorry i have weird comparison skills.
Can't wait.
Tomorrow everyone's back. I WILL HAVE A LIFE. No more dying online, waiting for someone to talk to.

Did i tell you? I cannot wait to catch Pirates of the Carribean.
Johnny Depp is so damn effing hawt.
Well so is Orlando. But Johnny Depp is the love.
;D
And there's this cool movie called Trade coming out.
Saw it on Entertainment Tonight just now.

Beauty and The Geek is a hilarious show.
Pity it's over!
But my dad and i laughed so damn hard.
Richard is retarded. Like seriously.


I wanna be your housewife <3
Phwoar.

HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO CHONG WEN QIN, WENDY.
HAPPY FIFTEENTH MY DEAR.
HOPING SOMEONE DUMPED YOU! HEHEHE.
LOTS OF LOVE,
SHANTI


I'm finally back to school. Though it really doesn't feel like it.
I guess since, 95% of the ip1s are at Ubin.
And a handful of us are still happily having extended holidays,
since Enrichment Week doesn't mean much anyway.

Met up with Shiqi&Avril today.
We went for the Basic Manicure Techinques & Tea Chapter activities.
Oh boy, it was adorable to see Mr Eng get shushed by his wife, Theresa.
And how whenever Mr Eng said something, she would oppose him or correct him.
Opposites attract. Completely true in this case. But they are quite compatible.
Okay, fine. Very. (Should be his wife, if not, it would mean Mr Eng is a horrible husband and a weird flirt =P)
Avril&I kept giggling.
And the lessons we learnt were quite good too.
No more leaving nail polish and giving it to laziness.
But sometimes you just don't care. Ladeedum.

Then we had lunch, and Miss Karen Sun graciously let Shiqi&I go for Tea Chapter.
Kudos to her (x Heh, the only Indian girl there getting special attention with the whole
"Oh because of your indian friend over here i am going to speak in english" or the "oh sorry! translate translate"

Ah well. No one knows i understand most of it. Besides my friends.
Our group was quite funny i guess.
Lotsa laughs, nice tea (besides the left-for-longer-than-30seconds pot)
And new friends made.
Then finally we went off, and i went home with Shiqi.
Reached home at 3. xD
Feels good to be back home. Day off tomorrow.
Maybe i should go do some shopping, or catch Just My Luck.

I'm glad i'm not in OBS getting chautah,
And i'm having a better life having good laughs and lazing around.
;D

But then, there are always things that spoil fun.
Glad i managed to get to go to Tea Chapter instead of the other one.
If not. Roar.
Someone spoils my mood.
Already did.

Friendship. I guess we weren't mature. Wait, they weren't. I was.
Though i've not reached the peak of maturity. At least, i understand better.
Childish. Ah well. Better late than never. Run along, go learn your lesson.
Before you hurt somebody else. And lessen your number, once more.
If that's even possible. Your so-called bond. You'll learn.
Don't talk to me though. No one favours sacarsm from me.
In the end, they all hate me. Joy to the world.

Rather not be friends with you.
Than try to mend it.
And bear in mind,
it doesn't even exist anymore.

i have been the worst of kinds
a sorrowed heart
a cluttered mind

Sometimes i wonder why you manage to have friends.
After all the underhanded moves through which,
you hurt and disappoint others.
But of course, most of your friends are people
who have never learnt, and never will learn.
And then, to top it all off,
you feed them false truths.
We're sorry for you.
Sorry for the fact that you'll never know what,
friendship means.
It's not materialistic, or about mere companionship.
It goes deeper than that.
And it's sad that you've never seen that.

On a totally different note,
I couldn't go to school today.
Can't go tomorrow either.
Gosh. The headache is horrid.
Pounding feeling at the side of your head.
Tiger Balm helped me though.
Sometimes i rather go with the traditional methods.
Works faster. ;D

Roar. I'm missing everyone.
Hope they're alright at Pulau Ubin.
It's dark already. (x
Hope there are no wild boars roaming around.

A-choo. I'm sneezing like hell too.
This sucks. Being sick when school reopens.
And can you believe it?
After next week is done, Week 3 is up.
Swimming Pe. What shit.
There's this thing with me and water.
I like swimming, but i'm claustrophobic.
Very. I hope i'll do fine. Haha.
The whole level stuck in the pool together.
Bloody hell. What are they going to do?
Breathing Exercises? =P

Ah.
I've been sick since yesterday afternoon.
38.9 degrees was my highest temperature.
Horrid.
Viral fever passed from my mother.
Because of that sick child in her tuition centre
I will never be a teacher in my life man.
Especially with an immune system like mine, i would probably die.
Though some people would be happy that i die.
But i'm not going to please them that way. (x

To avril&cherie: CHERIE IS RIGHT! xD!
Sorry to amanda and khai that i never reply your tags.
Can't remember what you guys wrote.

I don't think i can go to school tomorrow.
I've gotten MC anyway.
Haii. Mr Eng will be sad that i did not take genuine interest in signing up for activities. Ohh well.


Should i be angry or pleased or amused?
With your lack of courtesy,
and great amount of influence?
And newsflash,
you're not always right.
But of course,
this will be too much pain to hear,
won't it?
Little Miss IamPerfect.
Not.

I want to go to school!
:( I want to have inspiration to do math!
Though probably avril&i will be stuck. ;P
And after reading avril's post,
i think i will never want to be a gynae,
even if i have a sudden interest.

I realised all doctors are interested in the NJC ip programme.
Every doctor i go to, keep on asking me more questions.
Some, i don't really know how to answer though =/
Am i a bad student? Heh.

Back to school soon!
More torture, More work, More stress, More hurt.
How fun.

Consideration.
Truth.
Emotions.

The three you lack the most.
Wait the last one exists.
But wait, overexaggeration much?

And you,
Expected more of someone,
your 'calibre' as you claim.

Anyway here are some sentosa pics.
(x









The view.
See the crane?
They're adding land!
(What's the term,
I forgot. We learnt it in Geog.)









Oh oh,
That little kid there,
Has a name,
of someone.
And it was funny.
"Omg he's undressing"
And aren't the clouds pretty?
:D






Cherie&Me.
While avril&rachel were suntanning.
And we were applying,
sunblock. HAHA.
xD.
The girl
that all the uncles,
like and favour.
One Two Three.
HMPH!




Where we had our lunch.
(x
But then,
never go to Ben&Jerry's
So sad. Wasted.
Oh well.
SAVED US THE
CRUNCHES.




After sentosa, cherie chuyun av and i went off to orchard.
rachel went back cos she was tired.
haha, quite fun actually.
though av left abruptly.
to meet her friend.
But she came back!
And we went into Buttcheeks.
HAHA ;P congrats avril for your new discovery today.

Mosburger was quite good.
From everything to just four.
Kind of sad.
It was the exact place.
And avril and i sat the exact way.
And i had the exact drink.
Dejavu. Pretty much.
Thank you chuyun for your kind offering
to poor shanti.
The strawberry was goooood.
and my croquette burger rocked.
Then i had to go off.
Oh yes!

ON THE MRT THERE WAS THIS TEENAGER
WHO WAS CHECKING OUT THIS HOT GIRL'S BUTT
LIKE STANDING BEHIND HER AND LOOKING HER
UP AND DOWN
AND PEERING AT HER BRA.
and he caught me staring at him.
LOL. and moved away.
Score!
Saved the girl from evil eyes.
=D

Quote of the day:

Chuyun: Cherie! The sky is blue!
Cherie: That's cos it's getting dark.

How brainy chuyun =P



________________________________________

I have an answer to your question.
Fear.
I discussed it with Wendy.
(; (here's your credit girl)

Fear.
Which sums up everything.
Insecurity,
Sensitivity,
Jealously,
Cruelty,
and the list goes on.
It's all because of what we all do.
We fear.

It's a human thing.
But sometimes it turns to hatred.
Or fights.
Then it gets ugly
But then i reiterate my point
that some things cannot be forced.

Hope you got it.
Maybe you wouldn't know i'm talking to you.
But i think if you read deeper,
you would.

You've got the wrong idea.
But of course,
you wouldn't want to know the right one.

Influence plays a great part,
in any human life.

But sometimes,
you've got to sort out.
What will do you good.
And what won't.

You'll learn.
In due time.
But meanwhile,
let me tell you something.

Good luck.

You're going to need it
when you recuperate.
If you get what i mean.

Today was productive i guess.
Met up with Avril, Cherie, Chuyun, Rachel & Wendy AGAIN.
Omg you should try apple dippers with caramel sauce.
Sold at macs. It's good.
Though rachel likes fries with it too.
Rachel experiments alot with food.
Hehe. :P

And we had this weird theory on genres of music.
"Rock. Omg i broke my nail!"
"Clang Clang" - Metal.
"Kaboom" - Heavy Metal.
Lol. We are retarded people, but FUN & COOL.
COS WE LAUGH. Anyway.

Took 961 back to school.
-Coughs.

Anyway, mugging is good though we get dead easily.
Then Rachel Cherie and I went to run for 2 rounds.
(x That was so fun really. Though i haven't ran for ages.
Plus the 300 crunches we did at 2am in the morning,
It felt better.
Another 300 today y'all!
The Midnight Crunchers Club. xD
I made that up!
It sounds nice. Heh.

Then in the end we went home by like 5smth.
Haha short day today eh?
(x

Short but eventful.
Esp. the i-caught-you incident.
I may be wearing glasses.
But that doesn't mean i can't see,
legs sticking out.
Lol.
Ridiculous,
But hey,
Now i know you're ashamed of something.
That i shouldn't have found out.
Isn't that good?

Whoo.

I've done Ma1102 till Question 65.
(x
Though skip here and there.
Whatever.
I think i've done 50 over already.
Proud of me.

Tomorrow is class outing. We'll see how well it goes.
xD

[edit 2120]
Ah. Emo.

You're one hell of a thief.
Stealing over and over again.
And getting away with it.
But you've got karma.
And good luck to that.
But i wouldn't want those stolen goods back.
Ew.

Thanks denise,
for talking to me (x
And cherie chong too.


They're all for show.
Behind the scenes,
There's no more meaning.
Glad i'm off the hook,
from this act.
Thank you.

Okay blogger sucks.
First i take eons to load photos.
Next thing i know, i deleted my whole post.
So if you ask me, i'm not exactly very happy right now.
Roar.

Anyway,
met up with Avril, Cherie, Chuyun, Rachel & Wendy today.
Wendy was uber late ;P and we reached the kap bus stop at like 11.45
But Cherie was patient enough.
Avril still hadn't come but anyway, the rest of us went to kap and ate.
Cherie called Avril who dind't know we were meeting at 11.30 not 1.30 :P
Funny girl.
Then Av finally came, we ate and we headed off to school.
Studied at the great round tables.
It was quite conducive really.
It's just sometimes we got distracted.
Like Chuyun pouring the coke by accident (wait it was cos of the gas buildup)
And that attracted loads of ants which were later chased away,
by Yongqiang. With hot water, lol.

We did math.
Cherie Av and I were like not too fast.
And Wendy Rachel and Chuyun were like fast.
Rachel is just too hardworking for me.
And Go chuyun the nerd! xD
Wendy cut her hair! (x
And i forgot to say we went to buy mags at Cold Storage after KAP.
Anyway.

At like 4 smth, av cherie and i went for a run.
Random but it felt good xD
Then talked for a while and went back to mug.

At about 6, we all headed off to Daily Scoop at Clementi.
Besides Wendy who had to go :(
But we still love you!

Daily Scoop was good baby.
And it was funny seeing how each of us ate.
Avril's slow eating speed.
Chuyun's drawing skills.
Cherie's big chocolatey mess.
Rachel's "I've never eaten ice cream with a knife" and "that's why i save the icecream"
And me, trying to scoop up the leftover bits of icecream with my fork.
Unsuccessful indeed.

After eating, certain bored people started drawing.
You can go see our pics at Chuyun's blog.
Cos i'm too annoyed to post any

Avril ah, lianbo!
Your interesting crabby walk.
xD
"Omg omg omg omg"

Today was fun.
Tomorrow is another day of studying!

Perfect icon.
From Cherie (x

Roar. I was bored today. I did Spire somewhat. I watched teevee. I slacked. I shivered. I screamed. I ran. I jumped. I ate. I slept. I daydreamed. And finally, I gave up.

I don't see the point anymore. Really. Freak of a Frankenstein.
You don't know how damn right you are.
Good for you.

I'm listening to Honest Mistake. Lol. Gets to me now.
Don't look at me that way, It was an Honest Mistake.

Maybe not. Maybe i'm some person whose delibrate.
Whatever.

Roar.

And sorry Benjamin. Our convo sucked just now.
Both thinking bad stuff.
Sorry alright.

Yay study date tmr.

With Avril Cherie Chuyun Wendy & Rachel.

<3
Nerds. Not muggers.
Whee!

LAST PERSON WHO...
Slept in your bed: me.
Made you cry: them
You shared a drink with: Drink? What drink?.
You went to the movies with: louisa and her friend nigel
You went to the mall with: louisa and nigel (cine counted?LOL)
Yelled at you: mother
Sent you an e-mail: Friendster!Just!
You kissed: my stuffed doggie. =X

HAVE YOU EVER...
Said "I love you" and meant it?: Duh, are you trying to mock my sincerity!
Wish you were the opposite sex?: Most girls do, esp with George around
Had an imaginary friend?: When i was a kid, yeah.
Red or blue?: Have i ever red or blue? What a question. Anyway, RED!
Spring or fall?: Spring!
Last noise you heard?: Drilling noise. They're fixing the building's roof
Things you like in a guy?: Hur. No pt in saying. Cos no such guy. =P
Do you have a crush on someone?: Nah. I'm not in the right state of mind.
What book are you reading now?: Tuesdays with Morrie
Worst feeling in the world: say you hate someone, just to hide the fact that you love them
What is the first thing you think when you wake in the morning?: Remembering my dream
How many rings before you answer?: Lol. I don't know.
Future daughter's name: Depends. If i marry an Indian or not.
Future son's name: Again. Same answer.
Are you a lefty, righty or ambidextrous?: Right! Right? RIGHT!
Do you type with your fingers on the right keys?: What right keys? Like Touchtype claims? HAHA!
Siblings: 21yearold sister
Piercings: 2
Boyfriend/Girlfriend: All my girlfriends lor. :P

THE EXTRA STUFF...
Do you do drugs?: I'm sure lah.
Do you drink?: Yeah i do, water. And sometimes even, COKE! WOW! -.-
What kind of Shampoo and Conditioner do you use?: Organics/Pantene
What are you most scared of?: Being mocked. Being cheated. Being inflicted pain upon. Being hurt (feelings).
What clothes do you sleep in?: Some old tee and shorts.
Who is the last person who called you?: Let me think. Avril! xD
Where do you want to get married?: See first lah. Church or Temple. Then choose location.
If you could change anything about yourself what would that be?: Woah. Don't ask. If not i will write a 1000word essay. A++
Favorite number: 27 (My register number in pri sch i think)
Been In Love?: Nah. If i say i've been in love, i must be immature.
What Type Automobile Do You Drive: I wish.
Are You Timely Or Always Late: Depends.
Do You Have A Job: Nah.
Do You Like Being Around People: Mostly. Except when i'm disturbed / upset
Are you for world peace: Who isn't? Oh right, Osama.
Are you a health freak: Health Ed has always rocked my pri sch life! XD
STUFF...
Have you ever liked someone you had no chance with: James Lafferty!
Have You Ever Cried Over Something Someone of The Opposite Sex Did: Yeah. Not to me though.
Do You Have A "Type" Of Person You Always Go After: Basics, yeah.
Do you Want Someone You Don't Have Right Now: No siree.
Ever liked a close boy/girl friend: No way.
Are You Lonely Right Now: Nah. I hear my mom yawning.
Ever Afraid You'll Never Get Married: My mom will take care of that
Do You Want Kids: Havoc, really.

FAVOURITE...
Room in house: My room. But i like my parents' room too.
Memory: Overseas Family trips. Like to USA or Australia or Europe. <3
Day Of The Week: Saturday. It's always longer than every other.
Color: Too many to say.
Perfume and/Or Cologne: Don't use.
Month: November, (x my birthday!
Season: Autumn. It's beautiful. But Spring is too.

IN THE LAST 48 HOURS, HAVE YOU...
Cried: I think so.
Bought Something: Movie tickets and Popcorn.
Gotten Sick: Sneezing counted?
Sang: I just sang the song Rachel made for me! haha
Said I Love You: Yeah to rachel! HAHA. And i think Cherie.
Wanted To Tell Someone You Loved them: Yeah. My mom.
Met Someone New: Yeah.
Had A Serious Talk: Sort of
Missed Someone: A few.
Hugged someone: My sister!
Kissed someone: My mom kissed my cheek.
Fought With Your Parents: Screamed at my mom for giving my pants to my sister. -.-
Dreamt About Someone You Can't Be With: james lafferty! well not in the past 2days, but whatever.

I was bored.
But this sort of thing is fun.
Yet ridiculous. Hoho.
xD

Lights go out and I can't be saved
Tides that I tried to swim against
You've put me down upon my knees
Oh I beg, I beg and plead

{P.S. ITS A LONG BLOG ENTRY}

Today started off with my Ringtone blasting in my ear.
"YOU ARE MY ONLY , MY ONLY ONE" (Yellowcard)
I pick up the phone groggily and realise its Louisa.
I answer with "Hello?" "Hello shanti? Where are you"
"I just woke up" yadayada.
"I WAS SLEEPING YOU PIG! YOU WOKE ME UP!"
"WHY YOU SLEEP SO LONG"
Blahdeeblar.
Phone call ends.

I stare at the ceiling in disbelief. I was supposed to be at KAP in less than 2 hours to meet Louisa. Shit. Stupid girl made me go to Kap. :(
I rushed, hurried, bathed, got dressed, and went on the bus. And reached the busstop opp. KAP at 12.35pm. I was early. Bah. Louisa was late.

I walk down the overhead bridge towards Kap. Then this dude from behind me chatted me up. Some indian 20year old fella.
"Hey what's your name"
... Silence
"Where are you going?"
"Kap.."
I pick up my phone and hurriedly call Empress Dowager.
"Okay i'm going, bye!"
I am relieved.
I walk and walk, suddenly,
i realise the dude keeps turning back to look at me.
i am all, -.-'''

I wait at the bus stop.
Still never come yet, that louisa.
The dude comes back.
He walks slowly near me and sits down at the bench.
"So.... what are you doing"
"waiting for a friend"
"Ohh... okay... so what's your name?"
"Shanti."
Out of kindness i asked, "You?"
"I'm Saraa"
"Okay."
"No school today?"
"It's the holidays"
"Oh okay."
"So ... where do you stay"
"Around here. -.-"
"Ohh. Okay"
"Are you indian if you don't mind me asking"
"Yeah, duh."
"Oh ..."
"why?"
"Just asking (in tamil)"
I beg Avril to call me. She does. We talk.
The guy decides i won't talk to him anymore, "okay bye!", i just give him a look and say bye.
Whoo. The story of the weird fella who chatted me up.
LOL.

LOUISA APPEARED WITH WENLOONG AND I WAS LIKE "i knew a guy was with her, and i suspected wenloong!"
xD we had fun at kap. lol. Wenloong is seriously deprived of horny jokes. He got so cracked up. That he kept falling onto the chair next to him. And no wenloong, you are NOT a loser. Then we went to Video Ezy for a while, went back into Kap, walked out, stoned, went back to NJC where Wenloong had to go.

Then Louisa and I went off to Orchard. LOL we didn't know what to do. We found Lido at last. Then this group of girls (3 of them) walked to us and asked "Hey are you 16?" "No..." "oh..." "Wanna sneak in issit?" "yeah silent hill" Then Louisa's friend Nigel came. And helped them out.

The three of us went to Cine to watch The Omen. Stupid ending! D; But i guess, the day was eventful. Haha, to think girls were supposed to be more scared than guys. HOHO!

Alright. Done.
xD

♥Val. "paralysed by the fragrance of flowers" says:
):
♥Val. "paralysed by the fragrance of flowers" says:
what happened to y'all?
♥Val. "paralysed by the fragrance of flowers" says:
I thought y'all were like damn close and all.
;shanti &{bootylicious says:
they hated my friends.
;shanti &{bootylicious says:
they hated me.

Roar.
I know, you're going to think, Old news, get over it Shanti.
But because of y'all, i can't even look at my happy early teenagehood,
with a proper smile.
I can't even think about it anymore.

Why?
Because of shitass people like you.
Who judged me,
But say you don't.
Or won't.

Thanks a shitload.
Really.
If not, I would have been blindly believing,
that there is still some hope,
that everything will be normal,
as time heals it all.

Fake hellos.
Fake smiles.
Fake convos.
Fake waves.
Fake everything.

It pains me to do this, but i guess for the memory of what it was,
i will.

I hope you see this.
And understand how much you've put me through.
Great timing you've got really.
Just when everything piled up,
you messed me up even more.

Great job.
Congratulate yourselves.
Pat your backs for each other.

You've made me a freak.
A freak who never is spontaneous anymore.
A freak who is keeping herself away,
So as not to get hurt again.

I guess this is what people do when they get hurt once.
They shy away, and wait a while.
They do pilot tests to see if it's foolproof.
And then, they will slowly give their heart away.

Forgot to do that for you huh?
Once bitten, twice shy.
Hur.
Bitten too many times,
and the Great Old Shanti hasn't learnt to be mean.
Why so?

Just my weakness.
Count yourself lucky.
Really.

And i don't think i would really want to see your faces anytime soon.
Though i would have too.

Be happy with each other.
Happy ripping away others whom could have been my friends.
Happy being hypocrites when you yourself don't act the way you preach.
Happy replacing me.
Woohoo.

I thought you were everything.
But now,
you're nothing.
How quick a human's mind changes.
We never know, do we?




P.S. Sorry Avril if i can't make it for StreetFest tomorrow );

Didn't really do much today.
Well what do you expect? Woke up at 12.40pm. ;P
Bathed. Watched The Nanny, Making the Band 3.
Chatted online for quite a bit.
Watched 3 episodes of Season One Charmed.
Watched Charmed season finale on TV.
Talked to Mom for a while.

HAHA, she did some palm reading =P
It was fun really.
And talked about random stuff.
Haha, i guess i'm catching up for lost time with her.
After all her tantrums over the years on marriage.
Ah well. xD
Love my mom.

Then now, i'm back here again.
OH DID I MENTION I DID A ONEKM RUN WITHIN THE HOUSE!
HAHAHA. because my house is quite long, so i did 'laps' if you may call it.
Was bored really.
The holidays are driving me mad. =/

Anyway, 02 outing coming up.
This friday xD
Sentosaaaa. <3!
Let's hope Mr Han or Mr Cheng come along.
We'll have some good fun.
I hope the dream of mine comes true though.
Hmm.

Keeping a little secret aren't you?
Trying to lure me into wanting to know?
Let me tell this to you.
I don't care.
Frank enough?

And you have been missing for quite sometime.
Running away again?

To make a mountain of your life
Is just a choice
But I never learned enough
To listen to the voice that told me...

Always love?
Hate will get you every time
Always love?
Hate will get you?

I've been held back by something
Yeah. You said to me quietly on the stairs,
I've been held back by something
Yeah. You said to me quietly on the stairs

Nada Surf. Always Love.

Hate will get me everytime, learnt that already.

No use hating someone really. It's a waste of energy.
I guess great dislike is a better path.
Rather than overusing the word Hate, and harping on it.
Great dislike, and get over it.
If you're going to harp on some old happening forever,
there's no point really.
You're wasting your time, and others who are listening to it.
Two way loss. Not worth it, definitely.

But of course, if you choose to be that way,
Fine, not my problem. Your loss.
But my loss too, since you use me every single time.
Rawr. I can't be bothered to listen to you anymore.

And when i say i'm emo,
doesn't mean i'm thinking about THAT or THAT or THAT.
Those are old, and basically my excuses.
Only those who are close to me, know what i'm emo about.
HoHo.
And that doesn't constitute you, my dear.

And let me tell you something.
What i write on my posts are hardly comprehensive,
Because i code it. So only i would understand it.
Or those whom i explain it too.
No one else.
Okay?

Anyway, my dad is back from the hospital. (x
His knee looks weird though. =/ let's hope for the best.
I like talking to my dad. It's fun.
I talked to my mom just now.
About my friends, or ex-friends.
And she is so cute.

"Wah, i don't like her also"
"Aiyoh so young all your friends got boyfriends"
"HAHAHA, why is she so stupid? Her mother never teach her properly. Tsk"
"You ah, cannot mix with this kind of people. Must be good girl"

LOL. I should tell her more stuff.
And get a laugh out of it.

Btw, my sister's one bankrupt case acc. to Mommy :D:D
HEY SIS. I THINK YOU READ MY BLOG.
OH WHATEVER. ANYWAY HEY!

[edit 1950]

You can't do this to me.
You can't rove off, ditch me, leave me alone,
and suddenly come back and expect me to take you back.
You weren't there when i needed you the most, were you?
So why would i want you now.
All we ever talked about were the same old things.
And i'm sick and tired of you, using me.
I don't really care y'know.
You can go and hang out with those dogs.
I really don't give a damn.
Just leave me alone.
Really.

You cannot run away from weakness; you must fight it out or perish. And if that be so, why not now, and where you stand?

Life's lesson that is. But sometimes, fighting it out takes great courage. Do you have that?

The first line, was from One Tree Hill. Second line, was from Me.

I am the master of my fate
I am the captain of my soul

Did some thinking today. And some quote-searching early in the morning. Like at 1am, or 2am. Haha. With Cherie. (x thank you for cheering me up. And thanks to Lee Wenloong! For the very addictive song, Where is Your Heart by Kelly Clarkson. I've listened to it, at least 10times today. It's sad, really. Reminds me of her.

Giving so much to someone you love, but he fails to reciprocate though he may feel the same way inside. And you get all of these mixed signals. And that's the worst part. You don't know what to think anymore. Sigh. If only love was easy, we would all be happier. But i guess that's the thing about love. Going through the hardest moments, struggles, to reach to the destination, where there's no more you&i but just us.

That reminds me of what i told Cherie many hours ago.
The miracle-making hug. <3
That calms you down, when you're stressed up.
That makes you smile, when you're upset.
That makes you tear, because you're happy.
Don't we all want that?
At least, we do in our future loves.Haha. Let's get through school first though =P


Life is just a long journey that is made up a million little road trips.


And btw,
You know nothing.
Seriously.
Believe me.




We're so far away from who we used to be.
Why fight for it?
Because,
i love you.
And that should be enough.
At least, with how we used to be.
But now, i'm not so sure anymore.

Not so perfect are we now, Little Missy?
Well sit that damn butt of yours down and, listen.
One more, and you're going to get it big time.
I've tolerated your nonsense far too long.
And it's over my extremely high tolerance level.
Don't tell me i never warned you,
when i blow up at you,
the next time.

Second time blogging today. Was filling up my AA card. I have 3 events only. =S Haha oh well. My aunt and sis are back home from the hospital. Dad is well. ;D YAY!

Mom just rang the bell. She's home!
And damn it i'm angry. My sister took my pants and said it was hers. Then she tells me Mom gave it to her.
@*@#&@(#.
It's perfectly loose for me. GIVE IT BACK TO ME YOU ASIOPFHADKASHFOAS.
(Sneha knows that WORD =P)

My sister always does it. I steal hers, yeah sure. But i don't claim them to be MINE. Freak.
I'm so angry, i shouted at my mother who just came home from the hospital.
i feel bad, bleagh. I hate this.


Stolen goods.
Not worth having back.

Heard that avril?
(=

I don't get you. You find the need to put me down, every single time. Every single time. What is wrong with you? First you give me a list of Be-nots. And now you're acting like it's okay. I wish i could just erase you from my life. Forget that you even were here.
Because seriously,

I don't want to remember you.
Never.

Soon too the warm air comes by
Lie back and stare at blue skies
Thinking back away and from
When I'll be here and you'll be gone
Further from me

I think now of summers high
And reminisce on past times gone by
Only remembered now in
Earth, trees, the stars that have been there
And there forever held
Kept safe but memories never told
But felt if you went by
In never changing sky

I watched the Notebook (again) and Two Weeks Notice (again) today. I was pretty bored i guess.

Then Mr Eng called me, telling me OBS rejected my application because i am not allowed to do vigorous activities acc. to my doctor. Lol, so much for OBS shopping. But i have next year to use the stuff i bought. Yeah one damn long a year to go. But hey, whatever.
And as of now, there are two people yearning for Mr Eng to call them (Sharon&Louisa) LOL. His supposed "sexy voice" -shakes head.
Oops if Mr Eng reads this, (probably never) he will be appalled. Or maybe Flattered.
=D

No Obs for me. But well, i guess there's always a next time. Sadly can't go this year :( Sigh.




God's love will save our light and we'll come shining bright
God's love will save our sun and thy will be done
God's light will save us...

Further By Longview.
It's a nice song (=

Ah. I did up to Question 26 for MA1102. =P
I'm slow, yes. But okay for someone who only did for a few hours.
Poo.
Maybe i'll do MA1103 soon. Hopefully finish it up. Vellanki, it better be as easy as you said it would be! If not, =X
I lost my Man&Ideas file, MA1102 file, and SPIRE file. Great. I don't think it's in school. I remember clearing everything up. It's weird though. They are huge files. Where the heck did i put them. Gah. Oh well. Photocopying is fine by me too. Besides the fact that i lost my MA1102 term 1 paper. Great. No more learning from my mistakes. =/

12th June 2006

I was talking to Rachel just now. And we started this topic on change and all. I realised, I have changed, in the way i interact with others. Never used to have this big wall between me and the rest of the world. And now, there is one. And it hinders me, makes me think twice about what i am about to say to someone else, and think what that person may think until i get so drained that i utter something in a bored tone, that people think i don't care about what they're saying. I've got too much going on in that mind of mine, that i forget that i'm talking to someone and i just utter some answer that pops up in my head. Bad. This is bad.

I guess i need to talk to God now. Emo night. Wait, morning. It's 1.06am. I feel the block in me though. I guess experiences, incidents do affect the way you act and respond to things. And sometimes, they affect you greatly, like it has affected me. And this is one ugly thing. It's cost me. Many things. Things i don't want to state here. It will make everything obvious. Crystal Clear.

What happened to feeling genuinely happy? What happened to feeling genuinely loved?

I guess i will miss things like that outing with Mansi, Jumanah and Sneha and the Delifrance incident which made me laugh till i cried and it was such a happy day. Happy happy day.

I guess this is why people say, treasure it when you're younger. You won't have it once you start, growing up.

Growing up is one sucky experience i tell you.
Gosh.

I shall go reflect or pray or something now.
See you.
Whoever you are.

12th June 2006.

Since my blog date thing doesn't want to work. poo.

Anyway, today was pretty okay. (x I watched Bubble Boy starring Jake Gylenhaal? (sp?!) on Channel 5. Pretty okay. About a boy who was born without immunities so he lived in a bubble to protect himself from the germs that could kill him. In the end, we realise, he build immunities by the age of Four. Wth. -.-

Then my dad and i sat down to rewatch Pirates of the Carribean xDD. Gosh Johnny Depp is so damn HOT. And keira knightley pouts alot. Maybe that's the way her lips are shaped. Oh well. Orlando Bloom should consider nice long silvery/white hair. It looks good on his prettyboy face. I can't wait to catch Pirates of the Carribean 2. Johnny Depp cracks me up a whole lot. HAHA and i still laugh at the same parts everytime i watch it..

Then i went off to catch a bit of Holland V. Haha, it's not as EXCITING as last time when i watched it. But it's still fun. Esp. the eunuch guy, Xie Shaoguang whose damn hilarious. But i don't favour Jingjing at all. So damn annoying and well, dimwitted. =/ Oh well.

Then i went to watch The Nanny, a teevee serial. Lol. It's funny and its on Hallmark Channel from 6.30 to 7 on weeknights. And at 12.30 or smth on Sundays. Very fun to watch. but you've got to understand the english jokes well i guess to have fun watching it. If not you will just disregard it.

Then i came online and talked to a few people. A few surprises. But anyway.

Sneha, when's our date!! Hurry up and book me! LOL! xD.

I shall end this post with an icon of Pirates of the Carribean. :D









everyone has a face that they hold inside,
away from exposure.

heyy, second post of the day.

I went OBS shopping just now. Bought my trackpants, jacket, cap, and stuff. Came up to 95 bucks. Because of other stuff i bought :P Then came back home to watch Xmen2 ((;
I love Nightcrawler! He's so damn cute (as in adorable, not face please). And Pyro is one helluva screwed up poot. And so is Jean Grey who didn't die in the end as we know in Xmen3. -.-

I wish she was GONE. Oh well.

I'm running a fever now. With one bad cold. I'm curled up in my chair typing this entry with my cardigan wrapped tightly around me. I see Mommy! Oh boy, she's coming near me. And kisses me good night. HAHA ((; Mommy never changes. I'm always her baby girl. xD

Charmed rocks. I love Prue though. I miss her a hell lot. x(
Prudence Halliwell, WE SALUTE YOU.
Though shannen doherty the actress got goddamn arrested.
for doing I don't know what.

Poop.

I'm off now.
(x

Happy holidays everyone.
14 more days, to Hell.
A.K.A. School.
But i guess, OBS can't be THAT bad.
Can it?

And i shall pray tonight for my father,
whose going for an operation this wednesday.
May he be blessed with good health and a successful operation.

well, that's how i felt,
the day i left you behind.

i felt,
relieved.

Today was one laze fest. I watched the first episode , season one of Charmed. It was great. I guess last night, i was pretty shocked when i realised Season 8 was the last season of Charmed. The ending episode was rather touching. And i cried quite a bit. I guess it was good. Everyone ends up where they are supposed to be at. Everyone's happy. Besides the fans that is. I'm glad Brad Kern isn't ruling out the possiblity of Spin Offs. ((:

If i had the chance, i would go and check out the Charmed set.
And i will also get all the seasons! Either by pestering my dad to buy me the box dvd set or well, you know. (;

Going for obs shopping in a few hours. Pretty excited i must say. And god knows how we're going to be grouped. Lol.

13%
COME ON COMPUTER!
D; don't make this poor girl wait for oh so long.
Lol!

Sigh. I will keep all my childhood memories and remember my whole ancestor history, to tell my kids next time. It's fun. Finding your roots. Where you came from. What did your ancestors do. I guess, my family's pure Brahmin. Lol xD no spice. Oh well, we'll see whether my sister spoils that tradition. My cousin already did. We'll see how far my sister goes. And then it'll be down to me. Hoho.

Plastic rings she adorned,
Her love was perishable.
Plastic smiles she put on,
Her skills were commendable.

Today was a good day i must say (=

I went to Plaza Singapura to collect my phone. The LCD display is still screwed up, but well, whatever. It has not much use anyway.

Then went shopping a little. Got a top from Outfitter Girls xD. I saw some nice stuff at 77th Street, But by then, i was literally broke. 70bucks gone. Cos of the phone repair and the top.
Oh well.

My dad's loading me with cash (not over 100 or anything lah, duh) and hopefully, i can get a few more nice tops to wear. I've already got nice khaki pants with a nice belt. Heh. Maybe it's time for accesory shopping too.

Coming home from P.S., on the Mrt, was a nerve wrecking experience i must say. There was this young guy, probably around his early twenties or in his late teens, he was standing facing the door, and opposite me. I was sitting on a two seater, next to the exit. Then, he started talking to himself. The first words i heard was "Fuck Off" then he went on. He got pretty loud. And the people around me were pretty alarmed and aware of his presence. Then he muttered something in chinese. Sounded as if he said "i can hear you" (i don't know the hanyupinyin)

Then, he kept clenching and unclenching his fists and let out random angered sighs. And it was pretty scary. Then he came to my side because he was about to get out at Bukit Gombak. I just turned to look at him. Bad mistake really. He turned his head, and gave me this scary stare. Then i looked straight and started to freak out. Then he say "I'll never give in! NEVER" and walked out.

I told my mom this and she went "Either he lost his job or his girlfriend." HAHA. Poor fella. But seriously i thought he was going to do something crazy and i nearly wanted to get out of the train and take the next one. Sigh, i guess some people have real frightening psychological problems. We can't discriminate them though. That's wrong.

Listening to The Faders now. They're pretty good, for a three-girl group. Oh yeah. If you can, go check out The Fray and Snow Patrol. They're really good, to me. My sister is improving (: I guess, my training has made her a better fan of English music. HAHA. i make her sound like an animal or something. Oops.

Hearing your voice after so damn long, was painful.
At least silence was calm, not awkward.
What can i say?
My sister was right.
I miss you.
Though i still don't wish to do anything about it.
Can't blame a girl, for putting an extra veneer,
just so as to not get hurt.
Again.
And, Again.

I say it again.
Some things cannot be forced.
If it's meant to be,
Time will tell.
If not,
I guess it's just our fate.

Ah, Fifa World Cup 2006 just kicked off. Germany against Coasta Rica. 2-1 so far. Germany has to win this man. If not, i will be all sad. ): I mean they were first runner up in the previous world cup. And i was sad then too. I was supporting Germany all the way! =( Poop. And Brazil, is like super scary. My dad said England is expecting to win. We'll see. And did Singapore try out for WC '06? Cos if they did, man, sadly they aren't in the top THIRTYTWO. and 32 is quite a reasonably big number really. Considering there are countries that don't consider Football/Soccer to be one of their Niche areas.

Hmm. Cherie asked me to go ice-skating with her. I don't know, haha i've never tried ice skating before really. (x and i will probably be immobile with those skates on. Or lying flat sprawled on the ice unable to move, due to huge impact falling onto the hard ice face down. Haha, omg bad image. I don't want to end up in the hospital. There's still OBS man!

You freaky frankenstein.
Go find a new face lah.
Stupid annoying FLY.
Some things cannot be forced
And some things certainly cannot be forgotten.

Anyway, i don't understand why Guys are so crazy over soccer. I mean COME ON. It's just a simple game. 2 teams of eleven (i think) against each other trying to kick a round ball into the opponent's net. How stupid is that. I mean, i thought we Homo Sapiens have increased in intelligence far too long ago to indulge in such measly games. Ah well. Haha, boys will be boys. Though some boys don't really favour soccer either. (haha, i think you know who you are)
There are girls crazy over it too though. Hah. I guess it's an 'interesting' game in their eyes. The only time i'm interested is when it's Singapore against another country, Or when it's nearing the finals.

I remember how i was jumping around screaming to the television set. "COME ON SINGAPORE. OMG DAMN IT HE MISSED IT. SHIT SHIT COME ON COME ON. YESSS! GOAL! SCORE! WOOHOO WOOHOOO WOOHOO"
Those were the days.

Or the "OMG SHIT YOU BRAZIL. THOUGH YOU'RE GOOD BUT HOW COULD YOU ATTACK POOR KHAN WOLF FELLA! THE GUY'S ON THE FLOOR! OMG OMG OMG IS HE OKAY? WHERE'S BALLACK? (he's cute lah, he looks like matt damon) OH YEAH NOT IN THIS GAME. WTF WTF WTF. C'MON GERMANY!!!"

HAHA, i know, i sound like one helluva freak.
What can i say?
Soccer gets to you.
Lesson learnt :P

(x
Later.

When you fall in love with someone,
But they forget to fall in love with you.

The pain of the one sided love.


Ah, had a nice talk with Cherie online last night. Thanks dear. Though i was totally in Emo mode. But yeah. Anyway, Cherie, Jiayou honey! Anything, i'm just a phone call away. Though i have to go collect my phone later today. Just wait kayy? ;D And stupid Cherie made me listen to Maneater last time. Poo you!! =P. And yeah, i shall say this again. Guys are predicatable. (Cherie knows why!)

Anyways, Pamela and i made this resolution. It is wrong to name a food Hot dogs when there are sausage dogs around. Thus this is the new versions. Hot Dogs are the dogs themselves. Sausages is the food. By calling the dog HOT, we are boosting its ego. And by calling the food SAUSAGES, we do not have any confusion because of Equivocation.
;D Problem solved.
(omg so lame =P)

I had some function at my house just now. Brahmin women take part in it. Lol. I was the youngest person there. So out of place man. But these women talk funny stuff. About how when you grow old and fat, its so hard to move around. =P i was giggling away by the side. I never want to tie the sari man. I have a fear of tripping over it and falling flat on my face. No thank you! But then again, it's a tradition. And i don't want to be the one breaking it. We'll see. Maybe in 20years time, i may be wearing a hell lot of Sarees. Eugh, i don't want to know.

you can have what's left of me

Just my luck. I can't wait to watch it! Laugh at Lindsay's character's antics :P
Just as how i laugh at yours(:

Wendy! My father likes Aerosmith too! ((: Another fan yet found again. I didn't even know mann. Gosh. So much for my dad being too guai. :P

I wanna go shop at Outfitter Girls!
careful, i had a bowl of bitchy for breakfast

They and their cute tops. <3!

This is another brand i think. Urban Outfitters.
Lol :










Nice tee.
(x







If i just lay here,
would you run with me,
and just forget the world.

please.

those three words are said too much
they're not enough.

forget what we're told,
before we get too old,
show me garden that's bursting into life.

the world's more beautiful, through your eyes.

I blog again, after some thinking through about things. I guess I should reflect deeper so as to find a proper solution to some problems. But sometimes, certain wounds get exposed in the process, and it hinders your progress. Patch things up. Maybe, Maybe not.

It's up to the outsiders. Comfort zones are hard to leave.But, sometimes, i wish it was easier to show that this matters.

Then again, it's just the insiders in a turmoil, in a rollercoaster ride that never stops, in a merry-go-round, with the ups and downs. Is it their fault? Maybe, Maybe not.

There are some who remain where they started at, and are happy. There are some who like the sound of moving, like nomads. And then there are others, left to fend for themselves. And these others are the ones most of us neglect. Yes, guilty. But rather that way, than another alternative.

We'll see. I guess. I'll see, and think about my next step. Who knows, i may end up at Step 1 again. At least Step 1 will have a few others.

Now totally off the topic, i shall start another again. You are really not worth my trust, but pretending that you are (you pretending, not me) is really pissing me off. Or shall i say, grossing me out? I wish you had more common sense to realise what it is. But i think, you already know. Weeds aren't favoured. But when weeds grow, they kill. Just get rid of them then, right?

When you fall in love with someone,
but they forget to fall in love with you.

Gosh, i was just listening to Paris Hilton's Stars are Blind.
It was
HORRIBLE :X
She really cannot sing man.
I thought Screwed was bad enough.





















[Thumbs up to PinkIsTheNewBlog]
Anyway, Mcfly has this song called Please
and it's damn funny cos its about a girl called Lindsay.
I wonder who. It's quite okay i guess.
But Mcfly isn't my cup of tea.
For sure.
;D

She was pretty hot last time, but now,
she's looking all sickly!

Ashlee Simpson's looking better.
((:

[Edit 1716]
Okay got my passport done (;
In five years' time, i have to renew it again.
Then, went off to Plaza Sing to fix my phone.
God, i realised the broken glass penetrated,
the LCD display(external), so if i wanted to fix,
the LCD repair would cost a whopping $185
The glass itself was $50.
So i decided that the LCD display was nothing much,
so i just settled for fixing the glass.
Let's see.

have to go tomorrow to collect my phone.
;D YAY! ONE DAY ONLY.
WHOOO.
next time, i'm buying Nokia phones i tell you.
No more Motorola for me.





Life's a journey
Enjoy the ride.




Just speak.
Don't keep it in.



Lohan <3

Hello world. Today was fun, really. I went out with Cherie Chong! ((: Actually i was furreaking late because i thought my dad was going to bring me to Cine. But this is what happened:

(i hear the jingling of keys, PARENTS ARE HOME. its 11.30am, and cherie is meeting me at 12)

Dad: Eh! WHAT ARE YOU DOING HERE.
Me: HUH? you're bringing me to Cine remember?
Dad: SINCE WHEN! i'm too tired. You see lah. I went groceries shopping with your mom. I'm too tired. Go yourself.
Me: WHAT?! BUT BUT BUT i haven't eaten. i'm gonna be late! PLEASEEE.
Dad: WHA-. No. Nah! Give you food! Eat eat!
Me: But... I CANNOT MAKE IT ON TIME
Dad: Nvm one. Movies start late anyway. Just eat and go.
Me: Pfft.
Dad: Eat properly ahh.
Me: Yeahyeah.

LOL. i ended up at Somerset MRT at 12.55. The movie was at 1.10. I went like on a madrush. Cherie called me, and she was leading me.

Cherie: Yeah just walk and you'll see cine
Me: Okay i'm walking
Cherie: Okay.
Me: Across carpark right?
Cherie: HUH? oh yeah yeah.
Me: EHHH i see taka!
Cherie: HUH?! TAKA?! WHERE GOT! You're supposed to see Heeren
Me: Heeren? TAKA WHAT. OH I SEE HMV, HEEREN!
Cherie: -laughs.

I reached Cine at 1.05 and we took the lift up.
Then i thought Level 6 sold popcorn and all.
I went up in high hopes, and DANG nothing. zilch.
The stall was empty.
I was so damn thirsty throughout the movie can.

I think cos of me, cherie got abs today.
She's the man rocked so bad. It was so damn hilarious.
(x anyone who hasn't caught it, i demand you to get your asses to the cinema NOW.
Channing is so damn hawt for god's sake, ;P
Note to all guys: Whenever your nose bleeds, use tampons. Even beckham does! =P

Then after the movie, we went to KFC cos i was hungry.
Ate cheese fries and drank pepsi and we chatted.
Lol i met people i knew on our way to Heeren.
Heeren was pretty boring. So we left for FAR EAST!
HAHA god we combed the whole of Fareast okay.
Now we know every inch of B1, level 1, level 2. :D
And level 3 too.
I love graphic tees man.
And we even saw Avril's red striped tee.
NOW WE KNOW.

Then we went to the corner at the Goods Lift Lobby,
To take pictures :P
I'll post one later.

Then walked around, till 6 and went to Han's to eat.
I ate vegetable fried rice with egg and Cherie ate... I dunno what.
:P

Today was really fun though.
;D
We're gonna watch Just My Luck alright!
We will!

When's Rendezvous Two coming out?
=P

Off now.

[edit, 0028am ]

I'll always be there for you
Love.

What shit is that seriously.
Screw you.
For god's sake,
stop strutting around like we're owned.
We've got minds of our own,
And we certainly won't look to you.
Certainly.

Today was okay i guess.
I got a fever, but heck it.
I managed to sleep it off for about four hours.
But now i've got other things on my mind.

"Some people just don't change"
I agree with you.
I really do.
Took me long to realise,
but i guess better late than never.

I cleaned up my room a little.
Now it looks rather presentable.

Meaner, Madder, Maybe.
We'll see won't we?
Haha i think Cherie knows what this is.
Never Mind.

Tomorrow will be fun!
IT WILL BE.
TO THE ULTIMATE EH?
;D La Dee Dum.
To the person it concerns:
Hello (:


Crawling in my skin
These wounds,
They will not heal.
Fear is how i fall
Confusing what is real

to find myself againmy walls are closing in
(without a sense of confidence and
I'm convinced that there's just too much pressure to take)
I've felt this way before
so insecure

Linkin Park - Crawling <3


someone save me,
i'm drowning,
in this world of betrayal.
am i too deep now?
whose going to keep me at the surface?


Shut that trap, girl.
And the world can be saved.

And benjamin,
I CANNOT PLAY THAT DAMN SOCCER GAME.
i keep scoring for Saudi Arabia instead of my team England.
BOO!

Yeah I Know, So Buzz Off, Would You?
Get Off My Back.
Rarr.

Sometimes,
I know why some people tell me to stay away.
Because they foresee and i prefer to do it myself.
But now i've realised my mistake,
It's just you who doesn't back off.

Don't Bother
my new motto,
when it comes to you.

Don't Complain,
When you don't even,
Try.
Now, that should be yours.
Because i have better things to do,
than listen to you.


I didn't even ask for it.
But you forced it.
Gah.

I don't like being pissed early in the morning.
Okay not so early.
It's 11.24am.
But, Still.

I agree with _______ & _________ & _________ & _______
and the list goes on.
I really do.

And no one is to ask me,
Who i am talking about.
If you're blessed to know it,
Good for you.

Anything to keep the thought
of
you
off my mind.

Don't really know what you got,
Till it's gone.

Heartbreak.
The sound of hearbeat, turns me off.
Totally.
Reminds me of certain things.

Today was fun.
Met up with Wendy&Rachel and went to school to collect our results. i guess my gpa is fine x) stagnant, but hey, whatever. Then went off to Wendy's. God we took bloody long to reach her house. Haha, especially with her must to take the bus stop that comes later rather than the one that's 30steps away. She had to have the one 15steps away. Diao.

Then we got changed, and went swimming. Tired like shit. But it was really fun. 2andahalfhours. And we didn't do all that much, but it felt rather fulfilling. I think 35short laps and 6 longer laps? Wah lau, the 15second intervals became 3second intervals for me can. And there was this old dude swimming across me ALL THE TIME blocking me. Poo you. The goggle throwing game was fun. Regulated my breathing. The small pool was so fun lah. And i realised, that when you go underwater and come up, the sound is like the one you hear on Lost when they revert from the Flasbacks to the Present. ((: The Sauna felt good. Besides the fact that the hot water was scalding my scratch on my leg. Totally burning. Ouch. Oh well.
And it looked like, Poseidon! HAHA, with the dark lighting, dark water, and bubbles coming out of nowhere.

Then we went back after 2 hours or so. And went to bathe. Then Wendy made us some nice hot chocolate with marshmellows in them, and we sat together to watch Pink Panther. Omgz, it's a really cute show but kind of stupid. WHY IS PANTHER SCARED OF DOGS?! Oh well, i guess kid shows are not made to make sense. Then after pink panther, Rachel&I went off to Plaza Sing in hope of fixing my phone. In the end the queue was too long for me to bear, so we went to Pizza Hut to eat. Haha, the service was "Utterly Dreadful" not "Sucky" :P

Today was fun, but tiring.
I loved it though.
Wendy, i'm so coming to your house on Thurs/Fri.

Called up the Motorola Service Center.
My phone can be fixed!
Yesss!
;D I guess the call waiting was worth it.
Cheered me up a whole lot.

Anyway, i'm going off soon to go collect my results.
Bah, let's hope it's good news.
=S

And then swimming at Wendy's.
:D I CANNOT WAIT MAN.
It's been long since i've swum
Let's just hope George doesn't bug me
anytime today.

Oh oh i am a second man now

Tomorrow is the day to sleep well.
I've been sleeping so late these days.
12am, 1am, 2am, 2.30am, 3am.
Tsktsk.
I should sleep at 11 tonight.
HAHA i wish lah.
Poot.

Want to be your love, for real.<3

I'm pretty much in a bad mood right now.

When i went out shopping just now,
my damn bag fell on the side my phone was, and my phone slammed.
The damn screen infront broke.
Fuck Fuck Fuck.

At least the functions still work.
It's just FUGLY i tell you.
I'm going down to Plaza Sing tomorrow,
With Rachel,
To Fix THIS STUPID SHIT.
I hope it won't come up to a big amount.

At least i bought,
1. Khaki Pants from U2
2. Khaki Berms from .. (i don't rmb)
3. Body Shop Facial Cleanser Thing.

I spent about 100 bucks.
Poof.

And i also bought presents for my dad and mom.
My dad's new shirt is damn nice lah.
haha my sister and i have good taste.

I HATE NOT HAVING MY PHONE FOR LIKE I DUNNO HOW LONG.
PROBABLY THIS WHOLE WEEK?!
JUST FOR A PATHETIC GLASS THING.
THAT IS BROKEN.
GAH.

[Edit]

It's Okay

I gave you my all,
But in the end,
you took it with you,
and forgot what it was.
I helped you form again,
But in the end,
you took it with you,
and forgot what i did.
Maybe that's why i gave up
Maybe that's why i got fed up
Maybe that's why
I'm not there anymore.
But You are.
I'm here now.
But You're not.
It's okay,
I forgive.
It's okay,
I understand.
It's okay,
I love you.
But,
i won't forget.
And i hope you regret.
And relent.
I pray to God you do.
If not it'll make me the fool.
For caring so much,
When you don't at all.

But it's okay.
Maybe you'll see today
Maybe you'll see another day
But for now, it's okay.


The one i wrote yesterday.
Or was it today?
But i made it a song.
I hope you read this.
And see what i mean.



And everybody's talking how I, can't, can't be your love
But I want, want, want to be your love
Want to be your love, for real



Cherie and i love Rachel/Rachael Yamagata.
Be be your love, is a great song.

She sits alone at the corner,
With her fringe hiding her tears,
With her red nails smearing her blood,
Who will pick her up,
And bring her to Nirvana?
Who will take her out,
And show her Paradise?
Who will make her,
See heaven in this hell?

Don't ask me why i wrote it.
I just felt like it.
I guess it's about how depression shouldn't
make you forget the beautiful world.
Which exists, amongst the sinful side
we see everyday,

Everytime there is a bomb blast,
Everytime there is a murder.
There is still beauty in the quiet places,
Where the sea will take you with it,
To feel the innocence that's still left
of the world.

These quiet places,
I want to see.
These quiet places,
I want to feel.
Because in this world,
There is no more quiet.
It is all sinful noise.
That i relent.
and regret.

I guess, i'm back in the Emo Mood
this morning.
You can't blame me.
I was just listening to Amber Pacific,
Cherie told me about the band.
It's pretty good.
So are The Wallflowers.
And Plain White T's.
And of course, Panic! At the Disco.

I think i miss walking through CD Shops.
It's just a feeling i get, y'know.
Each song will hit something in you.
Be it a cheesy song by Backstreet Boys,
or a sadistic song by Marilyn Manson,
or a beautiful song by Death Cab For Cutie
Each song has a part.
And that's why i love being in stores like HMV
or That Cd Shop or Sembawang, Or CD-Rama.
But of course That CD shop and HMV has the most impact on me.

Sadly so, the prices are ever rising.


















These quiet places,
I indulge in.

Someone asked me why HMV looked so quiet.
I think it was Teresa.
I guess it was the moment.
That's why sometimes i take out my phone suddenly,
And snap shots.
For the moment.
Sorry for the overblogged picture,
I just treasure it.

These quiet places. <3

The fire in her is burning wildly.
Who will douse it?

The water she drank,
Quenched her thirst,
But she missed the pang,
in her throat.

Irony's such a bitch.
God.


Oh yeah DUDE,
overgrown apes are better than,
a fucked up bastard/son of a bitch/ attention seeking loser
/ desperate BITCH like you.
Have fun reading this.
But you said that days ago?
OH YES, you must feel REALLY bad eh?
Aww. Go cry your heart out.
Even she doesn't care.
If you dare bring this up with me,
we'll see how it goes huh?

Don't make a plaything of it.


the phone is always dead to me,
can i come home now?
head home into your arms again.
save me <3