today simply rocked.

((((:
AIRBUS GOT INTO THE FINALS
-SCREAMS AND JUMPS LIKE PSYCHO ALONG WITH AMALINA
hehe, i was damn happy lah
cos xiangyin came to 02 to tell chuyun and i heard and walked out
and chenchel said they got in and i saw sheena and ran and gave her a
BIG BIG HUG.
yay! then amalina came, we told her, and -SCREAMS!
the rest of the day was just plain happy.
i have to say. i was smiling throughout SPIRE.
<3

anyway, after that, amalina and i hung out
haha we went to KAP to eat.
and she went to cold storage for god knows what reason (;
it started raining and my umbrella was flying away LOL
then went back to sch, and saw liyana dance
HOT STUFF! hehe

then it was...
SOUNDSCAPE
-SCREAMS LIKE SIAO SIAO PERSON
sheena looked damn nice la (:
and she sang well too.
GO HONG GO HONG

so let me go
and you'll find someone

i hope that's not the case.
:/
well, i felt really hyper throughout soundscape
AND NOW I CANNOT WAIT FOR
TALENTTIME
<3
SHEENA ROCKS MY SOCKS!
THE ROW ROCKS!
WE ROCK!
WE ARE THE BEST!
WOOOOOOOOOOO.

right here right now
right here right now




you've reached the limit.
haven't you...
stop torturing people
who never did a thing to you
especially a friend
of mine.
please, LEAVE THE WORLD AND GIVE ME PEACE.


and you,
it's up to you really.
but moral support,
once everything goes,
i really don't know,
if we can do it.
this sucks.

soundscape tmr!
WOOOOOOO.
sheena hong yu mei
and her beautiful voice ;)
and xuemin's supposedly SEXY thing
-whistles.
heee.

i hate man&ideas.
let me die now.
i love it
yet it sucks
IRONY IRONY

gathered all my strength today.
reflection really serves it purpose sometimes.
it just gave me new perspectives in life.
taught me how to prioritise and how to ... well, ignore


lost without you
i keep trying to find my way

if i could only hold you now
and make the pain just go away

sigh, i don't know sometimes.
things get confusing at the wrong time.
just when everything is reverting to what i consider 'normal',
more problems crop up.
it's scary, but hopefully, strengthens our friendship.
x)

pe rocked ass.
i loved today's pe.
it was so nice to see the clouds rushing in and hovering above us.
hovering above the school, shadowing the sunlight.
and a blanket of darkness...
i loved it.
sam, louisa and i walked around the track alot.
then i walked with rachel and wendy caught up
wendy and i 'slept' on the track and stared up into the sky
it was beautiful, and i couldn't imagine a better moment than that.
then we started to camwhore.
and it started to rain heavily.
today was well, good.
things were good for me.
and i am happier.



maybe, i won't cry tonight.
that's great (:



i hope you won't cry either.
you don't know how much i worry about you
it bugs me alot.
and you don't know half of it.


i pray,
that your love will be true
that your love will overshadow everything else
that your love will remain this way
because seriously,
i've never seen anything like it

its 1 am in the morning.
and i am still awake.
there is school tmr, a short day anyway.



sigh.
the day gets very heavy by 10pm.
x(
crying has become a routine eh?
sigh.





















I don’t know how you do it every day.
You put on that façade, so as to fool me
You smiled but I knew behind that smile,
There was sheer pain.
You saw her flutter by you
And you stood there startled
You stare up at her face
And admire her innocence, her beauty, her elegance
You pick up the phone,
And press your ears against the earpiece,
Trying ever so hard to remember how she speaks
To relish in the melody, that to others, was mere words
You conceal your feelings from me,
Because you know I worry
You block out all of what she says,
Because you want all the memories gone
But aren’t these memories what you yearned for?
Everytime you laid awake staring up at the ceiling?
Late at night, when there was silence, and just you
And wind brushing against your face
You close your eyes,
And in the end,
Forgetting is never.
Because all you dream
to see,
Is her.

today was plain dead i tell you.
plain dead.

got up at 9/10 am.
did nothing but print out man&ideas notes.
omg lah,i wasted like what 60pages of paper?
so much for GREENLINK ;)

maybe i will sell my life to rachel lee kuan neng.
HEHE. but not 3.99 dollars.
x)

sneha was telling me some stuff.
((: TAKE CARE DEAR.
I <3 YOU. AND WILL BE BEHIND YOU NO MATTER WHAT.
and man were you desperate or DESPERATE. ;P

oh yes.
shoutout: AIRBUS ROCKS AIRBUS ROCKS.
haha i am SUCH a groupie lah.
sigh sigh.
at least so is amalina. oh and liyana.
(:


i am confused
like totally.
about you.
fickle,
and annoying.
but still,
i can be confused.
WTH.
GRRRR.

haha, no one will get me.
OH YEAH OH YEAH.
I MISS MY HUSBAND THE BEAR.
):

today was fun (:
went to wendy's house to do bio!
rachy was seriously psycho.... HAHA
I HAVE OUR TITANIC VIDEO xP
and we were all crapping away.
and wendy, PARADOXES IN QUESTIONS CANNOT BE POINTED OUT TO THE TEACHERS ;D
my phone went flat baby.
haha, then had to go meet up with amalina.
(: talking to rachel on the mrt was fun.

then at City Hall, met amalina!
we went off the esplanade
amalina, i really hope what we worry about does not come true :/
if every ____ in the ____ liked ___ who would you choose? LOL
we had fun at the art exhibition.
the guy is COOL man, COOL.
next time we go esplanade, we should bring a CAMERA.
hahaha x)

suntec was fun too.
toys'rus! SO FUN! I LOVE THE.. erm... PICK UP THING TOOL.
haha and the big big big big BEAR.
my husband (:
mango and topshop was fun too.
x))

fun day!
love amalina!
knows she loves me!
bye!

today was okay.
compared to 11.45 pm last night.
when i was all... well.
never mind.

IS1103 was fun ;D
the eyes thing.
HAHA i saw cherie's pupil or iris contract. W
OOHOO SO COOL.
and louisa... well, is blur. she can't see ... still.
haha, lame la she.
____ loves her ____ YOYO MA BRO YO
-coughs.

man&ideas, i zoned out.
besides funny comments from sam&lou.
maths, i zoned out again. haha,
oh yes, LT 1 : SHEENA((: hahaha,
our dirty little secret. more like yours.
but .. nvm

GC was crap.
so was Tamil, he never come.
arthi i love you! we talked quite a bit.
haha
AND WHO WROTE THE THING ON THE WHITEBOARD.
OWN UP OWN UP.
lunch was crap.
man&ideas, physics and spire all crap.
skipped drama.
louisa, sam and i hung out aft. school for a while.
we were 'tying shoelaces', RIGHT? xD
and man louisa, forbidden love :P

i can't choose.
i tried last time.
and it did not work.
but things are different now.
i really cannot choose.
i just am stuck in this shit.
i really cannot choose.
i cried enough already.
i bet you are not crying.
i bet you are not thinking about this
at all.
while i beat myself up over this,
nonsense.

it can never be one or two can it?
i want both.
i want everything.
you can't restrict me.
you can't say you're worried
cos you are not.
you ditch me,
and say i am going off.
right.
okay, fine.
if you feel that way,
i'm sorry i can't entertain you anymore.




FUCK.
WHY CAN'T THINGS BE NORMAL?!
ARGH.

Hot temptations
Sweet sensations
Infiltrating through
Sweet sensations
Hot temptations
Coming over you

now i know why it was on Closer's Soundtrack.
jem's voice is addictive. i've gotta say that.
and she's (as xiangyin puts it) EFFIN HOT.

ystd was interesting.
went for my sister's NTU event.
x) very good, i must say.
I LOVED THE ROCK PERFORMANCE.
and the emcees were... well... funny.
& i saw you there.
now i know ;P

changing my phone soon.
whoopee.


i'm going to miss my cousin.
she's my favourite cousin.
and she's migrating to the U.S.
she's got a job offer. x(
good for her, but i am going to bawl when she goes off.
i will be crying at the airport.
ARGH! I WILL MISS YOU SANGEE.<3


i think you think i don't care.
but in fact, i'm worried for you.
since you don't know
alot of things i know.
once you get dropped,
good luck.

today was really fun. ((:
and again full of laughs.
just like ystd.
went out with ama,liyana&sheena.
woohoo!

Gosh,
me&mytornsandals.
that was funny like hell.
liyana and i were walking at isetan to find amalina and sheena
who were at mango's changing rooms.
then after which

i said : liyana i need a shoe or smth
liyana: how bad issit?
me: getting worse and worse
(5 minutes later)
me: liyana guess what?
liyana: what?
me: i need the shoe NOW.
liyana: HUH? -looks to my sandals (GUFFAWS SO DO I!!)


gosh, i was walking around like i was skating or something.
bought billabong slippers.
LOL! funny day funny day.
dresses were nice (:
ESP SHEENA'S!
OO. BORDERS WAS FUNNY(;
i see you baby, shaking that ass.
:D


cry wolf was good too.
I hate Dodger.
Ew.
yes, Ew.


and shoutout to valerie:
I <3>
and i love this sia!
donch euu dink tiss is sho kewlxz?
O.O
god bless you child.
-winks!


finally,
you motherjaying JAYN jayking person.
HAHA ((:
(looks at amalina)

SHOUTOUT:

HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO MY LOVELY MELISSA YONG ((:
bimbo, with bimbo waves, with bimbo looks.
and a blur sotong brain ((;
BUT YOU ARE STILL SO SMART.
3D all the way girl ((:
D D D.
canon in D. haha, okay whatever.
SORRY FOR THIS LATE LATE SHOUTOUT.
HOPE YOUR PARTAYE AT SENTOSA WAS A BLAST.
;D
I <333>


you better be honoured ;)

anyway, going out soon to meet up with jumanah, mansi, azizah and sneha.
WHOO! big momma, here i come baby.

and i got the best theory ever.
but shan't bother saying it here.
i hope i don't see you there.
you spoil my mood.
):

bye!

Wednesday, March 15, 2006

i want to delete that fake and false writeup -COUGHS.
i'm sure she knows what i'm saying.
since she did it herself.
thanks alot.


anyway, today was weird
woke up at 10.08, realised i had to be at kap at 10.30
LOL. overslept like hell.
but anyway, i reached kap at 11 am, and zile looked... dao
scary! SMILE ZILE. haha, and his new haircut.
rachel got a picture. hehh, very unglam one.
wendy couldn't come. sad.

went off quite early actually.
oh yeah, louisa came to kap to eat.
haha, netball looks tiring.
JIAYOU OHTWO NETBALLERS!



anyway,
i really want to, well, like rachel said, ask them to go _____ themselves.
good one, rach. <3

i miss liyana,amalina and sheena.
especially sheena.
i can't wait to see her
:D whoopeedoo, bye!

Tuesday, March 14, 2006

parasitism.
it's such a scary thing if you put it into life's context. a very very scary thing.
sucks the living daylights out of people.
you gain nothing.
the parasite gains everything.
you suffer, you hurt, you weaken.
the parasite succeeds.
a sadistic thought if you ask me.
it is like 'only i want to benefit, no one else can'


i've got a fever. 37.8degrees.
and it keeps fluctuating. took panadol already.
but stayed home. never go for 02 outing. hope they're having fun (:

arthi and valerie really helped me last night.
now my eyes are all tired and drained.
and my head feels slightly better.
sigh. now i'm worried already.
' my weakness is i care too much '
caring is an important thing but when it goes overboard,
you get taken advantage of.

I WANT EARRINGS & THAT NICE SHIRT I SAW LAST WEEK.
NOW NOW NOW NOW.




i think this should be said.
privacy should be respected.
privacy should really be respected.
if you're trusted with something,
don't betray the trust, and in the end,
fail as a friend.
you should realise that.


[edit ; 1402]


Sometimes I’m caught in misery,
I hope that you’ll be there for me
Sometimes I’m lost in confusion,
I pray that you’re my diversion
I pour it out to you
You take it all in
I vent it all on you
You say that’s no sin
Maybe that’s why I love you
Because no one can ever be you

Note: jumanah, you asked for it (:

Monday, March 13, 2006

hello!

liyana, sorry about ystd
i just got too freaked.
and i started writing in caps.
hehe, sorry eh?
and sheena hong yu mei
-coughs is so brilliant.
i promise i won't tell.
a promise is a promise.
and a promise must be kept
even more since i LOVE SHEENA!

dog i tell you,
do everything that's asked.
you're gonna get dropped like a bomb.
sadly, we all know your plight.
and you yourself don't.
blind. that's what you are.
you've been used.
ah well, retribution.
good luck to you
luck ain't really gonna help though.
but giving you all the help you can get.
even from people you have
... cast aside.


[edit]

IS1103 project was not that... fruitful.
but after it was.
wendy got her ears pierced at 77th street.
man your ears were red, so red.
like infected :/
haha, then rachel wendy and i went shopping for a while
and we also went off to watch Nancy Mcphee.
it's a good show i must say.
emma thompson is actually pretty!
(:

'rub the hotdog and maybe more cheese will come out' - rachel
and wendy has affinity with hats.
'wendy wears cats!!!'
hehe, so lame la we three.
they bought stuff from Flesh Imp.
while i went home empty-handed.
i am just so... thrifty. haha not an impulsive buyer, trust me

today was fun. i must say.
WHEEEEEEEEEEEEEEE.




[edit: 12.47am]
i am letting it all out.
sore, very sore.
and now dry.
mind still clogged up.
heart still heavy.
very, very.
all i can say is
thank you, a big thank you to arthi and valerie foo(MGS).
i don't know what i would do without you two.
you really don't know how much this is hurting me,
do you?

Sunday, March 12, 2006

what is wrong with you.
you're just seriously and sadistically SCREWED UP.
we'll do what you did
taste of your own medicine huh?
and what you don't know is,
many of us know about you.

one goes down
next comes along
the other interferes
i take that one
that's how you live.

and there's also another thing
what goes round comes round
wait for your turn.
and you're going to just see.
how it feels.
to be done this way.
over and over again.

if this is how you choose to live your life,
wow, i wonder where the word morals is in your dictionary
probably it isn't even there.
i would rather call you a whore.

ANYWAY!
yesterday was interesting.
thanks to all who enlightened me (:
you know who you are.
i'm sure i enlightened you too.
and...
i love liyana!
haha!
bean rocks.


thorns&seeds
need a reality check.
seriously.
-PIAK!
(amalina and shanti laugh) ;D

Saturday, March 11, 2006

i'm very very confused and lost.

one side, i'm wanting this.
another side, i'm just plain afraid.
the fear of letting something i anticipate actually take place.
that's just, controlling me right now.
i have you guys.
<3.
who help me, advise me, sort of like my angels.
haha! i'm just waiting for it to happen.
like -BAM.
and then, its over.
and i forget about it.


i don't trust you.
but if i have no trust
i will never get to know you.
but the point is,
i don't even want to.
and you just make it all difficult
by doing this.

to trust or not to trust?

i remember my sister told me last time
trust no one. know everyone.
but if there's no trust,
there's no point in knowing.
because in the end, the people you know
just go.
and the people you do trust,
just stay.
if they don't backstab that is.

this is sad.
my life is just plain sad.


mock me more, and i'll just make sure your life is screwed up.

Friday, March 10, 2006

last day for term one.

finally.
i couldn't wait for it.
and now it's here.
A BREAK (:
though with alot of homework to complete...
but, at least, i get to sleep more

went to p.s. with amalina, liyana, meiwai and sandra. <3
meiwai is absolutely CUTE i tell you. so cuteee.

"did you get the joke... *worried THE JOKE WASN'T ME!!"
"i didn't know where my mouth was, then i 'drink' the water and it dripped down"

gosh, she made me laugh so darn hard.
((: san's cute too.
her burger and her.
and our concoction. hoho
san's two balloons.
MISS PATROTIC.
red&white.
and she looked 3 years younger.
"when's your psle ah girl?"
HEHE.






i hate you.
though you think i've forgiven you.
i guess that's your delusion.
you wanna be fake
then get fake.
just know, i don't care.
or give a fucking damn
about anything
you
do.
maybe you won't know i'm talking about you
maybe you'll never see this place.
then, too bad for you.
you're just incorrigible.
that's all i can say.

Thursday, March 09, 2006

ASSESSMENT WEEK IS OVER.
THANK GOD.

after school, hung out with amalina liyana and sheena (:
liyana, amalina and i went back to mgs.
mrs tan rocks la! :D

then liyana has to go for WD and amalina and i...
went shopping.
hehe. we crapped alot but now have come up with this theory.

it may seem like crap to others, but means a whole other thing to us.
(:

here goes nothing:

Well as we know, we have 4 electrons to lose to gain the octet structure, the most desired structure at this point of time. We want to gain the same electronic configuration as Neon. These 4 electrons are amusingly and irritatingly excited and we just want to lose them since they are already the valence electrons. However, there is still quite a strong nuclear charge therefore, it is taking quite a bit of time. We need to hurry up this process. We shall come up with ingenius ideas. All we want, is quiet. peace.

4 electrons to go.
Then, peace x)

haha, no one will understand this.

oh yeah, rubberbands are annoying you know. some are just so stretchy that they are irritating. they bounce back from one point to another. quite sickening
-looks at amalina knowingly.

oranges&apples, i've lost hope in them
watermelons&melons, maybe there's a glimpse of hope
rambutans, unpredictable
strawberries&bananas, god always has a reason

;)
I AM HOD OF MAN&STUPIDITY IN SAMANTHA'S NJIP REJECTS SCHOOL
WOOHOO!

Wednesday, March 08, 2006

today's tests.
chemistry.
and MA1101.

chemistry was okay.
must easier than expected.
but made me think alot.
LOL.
shiqi so funny, sit alone at the back. AWW.
haha

then maths, ARGH
stupid maths.
but its okay.
heck it.
i shall move on to IS1103, which till now i haven't mugged for.
i have revised last time.
but .... i can't be bothered to mug now.
i mean test is at 12.10!
PLEASE. haha :)
shall slack till 5.
whoots.


thorns&seeds

today's tests.
chemistry.
and MA1101.

chemistry was okay.
must easier than expected.
but made me think alot.
LOL.
shiqi so funny, sit alone at the back. AWW.
haha

then maths, ARGH
stupid maths.
but its okay.
heck it.
i shall move on to IS1103, which till now i haven't mugged for.
i have revised last time.
but .... i can't be bothered to mug now.
i mean test is at 12.10!
PLEASE. haha :)
shall slack till 5.
whoots.


thorns&seeds

Tuesday, March 07, 2006

HEYHO.

maths was....
FORGET IT LA
I FAIL LIAO
:(
actually no.
i hope to get a B.

tamil was...
TOO CRAPPY.
i was laughing though.
cos i saw sheena walk past the class like 4 times?!
she looked dumb((: my dodo darling.
and my tamil teacher was cracking me up.
SIGHH.

before the tests, the morning was fun.
VITAMINS GALORE EVERYONE <3
haha, i think they made me dumb
but they were NICE.
whoots.
omg shit, i'm like whooting everytime.
influenced by sq and mel liao la.
haha!

byebye
CHEMISTRY EVERYONE

CL 2 + H 2 ----> 2 HCL
Br 2 + H 2 ----> 2BrH

YAY!

Monday, March 06, 2006

hellooooo.

today is STUDY DAY.
how stupid is that. they should have a STUDY WEEK instead. one day's studying is useless to me. i bet you, tmr i will be doing my test and having like brain block or whatever.

oh gosh, TOUCHWOOD.
haha, shall not curse myself.

talked to liyana till 1am yesterday <3
nice to talk about serious stuff and let it all go.
yay i love liyana.
and liyana loves me.

some people are studying in school but i cannot la.
i end up laughing away, and all my knowledge probably also get lost.
-.-'''
okay getting spastic.
but 30questions of MA1102 made me this way. don't blame me.

by the way, I LOVE BEEP.
beep beep beep.
shit, its 10.25, i have to mug again.
tata.

god bless me.
i hope my brain cells last for this week.
:S

Sunday, March 05, 2006

mugged for 6/7 hours yesterday.
haha, now it looks damn little. :( SAD LEH.
i have been mugging since 9.40, now its 10.20

to-do list
1. chemistry revision
2. biology revision
3. MA1101 practice
4. tamil revision
5. IH writeup
6. (if possible) MA1102 practice

gah, i think i better go
must mug till i cry
hahaha.
i won't though.

yesterday was interesting.
haha, hmm...
shiqi may know.
lol.
tata to everyone!

Saturday, March 04, 2006

how much can one cry?
isn't there a thing called 'dehydration of the eye' or something. there should be. at least there's a limit to how much we wallow in self pity.

tons and tons and tons of work to do.
and i'm not even halfway through. going out to meet liyana to study maths together. MAN, i hope it works.

i hope i don't break down during this whole stressful week.
i'm pretty scared, or rather, very scared.
my first IP assessment week. its very nerve wrecking. i remember how i nearly broke down last year but managed to get a grip.



i love you, after all that we've been through
i hope everything's going to be just fine.
but i know it won't.

Thursday, March 02, 2006

i've gotta be honest
i think you know


somewhere behind this
i know
i hope i can find the words to say
never again,
no
no never again

you're a god <3

vertical horizon propaganda. :D

i am trying to mug for physics.
but seriously, what is there
and how hard is it going to be?!
i am freaking out totally. imagine my face. i must look scary. when i'm stressed i look murderous.

slept at 10 ystd. so damn freaking early.
HOHO. but it was nice, slept for like 7-8 hours.
haha early morning scare.

amalina is hilarious.
liyana is crappy.
sheena turns pink.
and i am perfectly normal.
HEHE.

i am going to go mug properly now.
blogger is distracting me.
all i can say is,
HOW WEIRD CAN YOU GET!

Wednesday, March 01, 2006

when i look at the stars
i see someone else


i am not going to touch my math homework.
at all.
haha, i hate anything to do with thinking now
even blogging.
man that sounds a bit too bimbo
but, hell with it

I love Story Of The Year, Jack's Mannequin and Switchfoot for the moment.
momentary loves.
<3

i hope what tab said about my LA essay is true. I NEED ALL THE MARKS I CAN FREAKING GET. (:

eugene was totally gay after school.
haha, and wendy has now "the DUH signs"
as if WHATEVER wasn't enough. :P
wendy's adam and swimming pool
will she ditch the ancestor of all humans to get a dive into the pool?
HOHO.
so super wrong sounding. but nvm
haha!