today was stressful.
i realised how much i have to catch up on.
especially for maths.
i'm trying to do indices, and i cannot get anything. trust me, i know nothing. i am on the verge of tears cos of this. yeah it sounds lame. but, it just... sucks since i have so many thousand things on my mind already. makes me feel like a failure.
can't even control my life.
can't even decide anything.

i'm in total confusion.
and misery.
everything's piling up at the wrong time.
just when i thought things were getting better...
argh. SOMEONE SAVE ME.

shall pray to God a little more sincerely from now on.
i'm sure i can depend on the faith i have on God to help me through everything.
((:
YAY!
shall go do my maths soon.
ask mommy for help.
YIPEE

One thing is clear
I wear a halo
I wear a halo
when you look at me
But standing from here
You wouldn’t say so
You wouldn’t say so if you were me

here's a shoutout to valerie foo from mgs.
thanks for the sms, it meant a whole lot.
gorgeous? <3

i really cannot wait for the march holidays. i seriously need a break. from everything.
its like i'm a constant workaholic.
a routine.
once i reach home, i switch on the computer, get onto MSN, and start doing all my work.
i barely have time with my family, time to spend on myself, time to think.
need to make up for all this.

and also to meet all of you guys <3
mansi, jumanah, azizah, khairu, maria, clarabelle, joanna, sandra
i can't wait to go to san's house actually.
marathons, talking, and just girls together having a great time.
i hope peyton doesn't die in episode 16
if she does, i'm going to weep my head off.
boooooooooo.

I HAVE TO MUG.
I MUST MUG.
my motto for this week:

MUGMUGMUG TILL IT BUGS!!

watched danceworks today.
NJC was super good.
but... we didn't get in, in the end.
i don't know what the judges were thinking.
we were like one of the BEST in the 20teams.
it's just plain unfair.
GRR.

at least, we know that WD did superbly and they have nothing to weep over. WE WERE THE BEST NO MATTER WHAT (:
haha, i'm not even in WD. LOL

amalina liyana and i are brainless dumbos = bimbos.
we walked all the way from marina square to ESPLANADE.
do you know how long that is?
just to find the 171 bus stop that never was found.
we ended up taking the city hall mrt.

and i do NOT look like a baby.
so, SHOO. hahaha x))

3 bimbos walking around town trying to find a non-existing bus stop.
how entertaining.
we wasted 40minutes. oh gosh.
haha, and on the bus, another big joke.
liyana trying to tie her shoelaces. hehe

"oh breathe in the brain cells everyone. MFFFF."



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rubies suck.

and i read your entry.
and there's a thing called nicknames.
like yours...

today was interesting i guess.

thanks guys.ALOT.(meaning, amalina, liyana, sheena) esp. sheena. don't ever do it again
if not i'm going to burst too. and when i do,
its not a very PRETTY sight. hehe.

and what you said was insensitive, but you know what? you are an asshole after all, so retribution is awaiting you. and i'm serious. you're going to wish you had kept your fucking mouth shut and sewn up. 'cause now, you're just plain screwed. i'm sure you know what that means.

maths was super boring. i was drifting away into my thoughts. to think i actually found maths interesting at the start of the year. i guess all the will to learn is gone. IS1102 was quite okay and i love yanshan's sheep! BAAA. my darling friend. haha mr cheng saw it and was like ?! haha, i guess 15 year old girls can be quite childish. BUT, soft toys are great.
reminds me of how childhood used to be.
simple, easy and no politics involved.
just plain sheer innocence.
if only it was like that now. if only.

at least, to cope with it, i have you guys. you know who you are. and i know i can count on you. no matter how much troubles we've been through, we always end up finding each other again. and for that, i thank Him. <3 you all loadsa.

i want life to be normal.
unless normal is this.
if that be so,
i want my old life back

hello.diary-x is officially screwed up.SO, i'm back here.haha, haven't updated here for like eons. eons i tell you...


anyway, njcip's stress level is getting higher. i know everyone can feel it. i think i'm just going to fail everything possible. i will be ready for it. and there's an issue on _____, which to me is quite ridiculous. whoever led ____ just doesn't know well enough.

napfa, I NEED TO WORK FOR IT. shall go run more and jump more.
FLY INTO THE SKY.
hehe. i miss being in mgs sometimes. sometimes, comfort zones are hard to form whereever you go. don't you think?

i'm here waiting crash...

damn its stuck in my head.
:/ oh well.

anyway.
thanks vellanki. x)) alot.
haha and i dread tamil now. 2hours doing an essay and a letter. how not fun. ):

maybe if you tell me who you are
then i can help you and myself much better
instead of leaving me in riddles
and deceiving yourself that you're helping.