teachers' day was fun.
sad news.
but WELL, good for ______. =)
haha.
hope ________ is happy.
haha
philosophy is ______'s thing man.
EVERYDAY.

anyway, sch of rock quite erm.. AHEM not so nice
haha.
though i screamed alot.
the bands have no passion
PASSION please.
like FEEL the emotions of the song
haha
sighh
i liked the one where got the BOOMBOOMBOOM song.
haha.
very nice!
x))

after sch, went to orchard.
first went to macs at erm... luckyplaza? for lunch
ate large fries and drank coke.
then laze abit and proceeded to heeren.
X))
hmv rocks!
ama! thank me!
i spotted that mcfly single for you!
she bought the i'll be ok single of mcfly's.
-.-
haha. oh well.
as long as she's happy
i tell you she went MAD with glee
and sheena bought greenday!
i want to buy either COLDPLAY or THEKILLERS.
i really love their music.
i love emo music too.
x))
haha.
HARD-FI is nice.
and so are the FADERS.
but kinda poseur.

then after HMV, which was great!, we went 'shopping'.
haha go round and round heeren.
all the shops.
BOREDOM.
then we went to far east.
walk and walk
till 3.20?
then we went to the burger king.
drank coke AGAIN.
regular at bk is REALLY big.
oh wells.
then we had to part.
we meaning SHEENA AMALINA SHANTI AND LETI
ama and i had to take 190.
dunno where to go at first.
then we went to the bus stop infront of bk
we check the board.
it goes the opposite way instead of to CCK.
so we went opposite using overhead bridge.

then we sat at the busstop.
first 190 we saw DID NOT STOP.
we saw it too late.
then 2nd 190 i flagged, NEVER STOP.
the ppl behind me were looking at me REALLY weirdly.
3rd 190 we both flagged, NEVER STOP.
shanti found it weird.
so walks up to the board.
looks.
laughs hysterically.
me: ama?
ama: mm?
me: 190 doesn't stop here!!!!!!!
both: HAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHA
ama: no wonder never stop for us! 3 times! 3 190s gone!
me:HAHAHAHAHAHAH
we wasted 25 minutes at a bus stop thinking 190 stops there.
POOT.
hahahaahhahaaa.
we both walk and walk to the next bus stop.
me looks at board.
190 stops at this stop.
GAH! the both bus stops along same stretch of road.
SO LAME.
anyway, we finally got the bus.
before that, we saw this ahem butch? from ________ sch. i shall not mention.
so obvi la.
she (butch) and another girl were like so close to each other.
like the B was like a guy and like slightly holding the other girl.
in a MANLY way.
we got freaked.
oh wells.

on 190? i rushed for a seat.
my poor feet had been tortured long enough
listened to BUSTED!
x))
brings back all memories.
we talked through the journey about everything we had gone through.
x)))
sigh <333333 mgs.
never will forget it.
ROCK ON!

hey.
depressed mode.
I LOST MY PENCIL CASE. ):
i hope its where i think it is.

bleah.
realised it when i was going to tamil class.
i am so SHIT if i lost it.
i have 20-30bucks worth of stuff in there.
fcuk.

and tamil class.
BIG SHOCK.
surprise composition test.
and the title?
an invention that captured my heart.
BULLSHIT.
and what did i say?
the TELEPHONE.

how creative hor...
someone wrote about gregor mendel's theory.
damn CHEEM.
grrr.
hahahaha.

at least i have stuff to look forward to.

firstly.
WEDNESDAY : outing with sheena and amalina. to either ORCHARD, or anywhere we want to go. x)))) so kind of shee to suggest that. <3333 haha. sorry lama! we will repay you.
no I WILL! red eye baby!!!!!

THURSDAY : tab tab tab. let's go rock the world babe! haha. herbie fully loaded - HERE WE COME! x)))) i am mad. hope i find my pencil case. RIGHT?

FRIDAY : ahemahem is happening. TOPSECRET! x) and and SOCIAL DAY! cos i am a what??
a SOCIAL BUTTERFLY. ahhh. so lame

3 nice days to look forward to. LOVE my life.
but after that, WORK WORK WORK.
STUDY STUDY STUDY.
and me? CRY CRY CRY.
cos no info in my brain.
information overload.
reject reject.
capacity full.
please delete.
delete.
unable to open file : GEOGRAPHY
hang.
ctrl alt delete
please end task.

poor brain is going to react like this.

right now waiting for liyana to call me.
where is she?!
i MUST let her listen to something.
whee. BYE!

people are looking right now.

came back from school.
went out with florence to lot1 for a LITTLE while.
to buy popular stuff and NTUC stuff for home ec.

guess what?
MY PLANT TISSUE CULTURE THINGUM IS INFECTED.
but alot of people too.
heh heh
ms yeo said she will tell us tomorrow if we can re-do it.
BECAUSE some tech person did not prepare enough MEDIA!
so bullshit.
x(

bacteria/mould looks DISGUSTING.
white and patchy and gross.
ewww.
and. sneha vellanki's plants are a miracle
she didn't remove them from her bag since FRIDAY
and she realised it today during chapel.
AND there wasn't much mould.
at least Lesser than mine!
that was near sunlight.
POOT x(
and without me reminding her, HER PLANTS WOULD HAVE WITHERED.
so she should thank me.
good thing she's coming with me!
she knows what i mean.
BUT i won't get along with her friend cos that friend,
is a HILARYDUFF fan.
which i am so NOT.
i hate duff.
actually i don't.
i just dislike her work.
its not even WORK.

anyway, thursday is a FREE day for me.
anyone want to go out with me?
valerie is one option x)
but she could be youknowwhat.
then prisch ppl is one option x))
but don't know if they have plans.
DADDY!!! is one option x))
cos he will bring me for a movie cum. shopping venture.
YAY!
<33>
hurhur. but i don't know if shopping can.
he will get BORED.

why is that more important than me?

hey peeps.
mrs chen didn't come YET for pw.
so we are all slacking away
WOOHOO!
30minutes more to HOME.
this is home...
truely...
where i know i must be...

hurhur.
x)
rock it!
- looks at chloe.
i am bored now
i see mel.
i blogged her
let me get her to say sth.

MEL(: - she blogged me! and now i'm blogging her. so ah well. i'm LOST in my thoughts. byebye.

BEULAH: hi! oh thankew.

YANSHAN : helloo.

hurhur. how nice.
greetings from friends.
x))
bLEH.
my KOREAN name ROCKS!
:D
and and and
i love the concentration game
so fun!
but my game life was short-lived
i lost the first.
SIGH x(

and i have another disppointment
not going out ANYWHERE.
cos tab can't.
and they have pw.
BOO.
i shall call jo soon
i wanta ask her if we can go out.
HEHEHEHE
bye
mrs chen is here. ):

Sunday, August 28, 2005

i feel damn tired now.
cos i slept at 8.30 last nite.
when my stupid sister was supposed to wake me up by 9.30
to study!
loser.
she was probably dancing in her room to actually care about me
why can't she be a better sister?
like all those loving ones i sometimes see on the TV.
she's always putting me down and interfering in stuff that don't concern her one bit.
she's the main cause of my depression.
always making me cry for all sorts of reasons.
she has broken my spectacles TWICE.
while fighting and she yanked my specs out and threw it.
making me practically blind.
she always puts on this fake smile when relatives come and pretend she's all great and in front of them, she will start saying things that make me look lower than her. not as intellectual as her.
GO TO HELL bitch.

but of course no matter what, i don't want her to go to hell.
i love her still.
when she actually IS nice.
but when she gets all annoying and bitchy.
she does totally SUCK.

- excerpt from an OLD post.

sister wanted to see it.
SEE SIS! though you get on my nerves, i still love you!
hurhur.
x)

and hope HE does not mafan you anymore.
damn sad case.

_________________________________________________________

my siser knows my blog now!!
maybe i should get diaryx.
password protected.
THEN, she won't know how to get in.
MUAHAHAH.
i hear komalas food arriving.
YUMMY.
and desperate housewives started
but too malu to watch infront of my parents
all the kissing and all the AHEMs happening.
daddy watched with me once
I GOT SO MALUFIED.
cos bree was in her red lingerie.
eeeeeee
x(

im listening to Hard Fi now.
quite niceeee
hahaa
i think if my sis read this, she will be wondering why i sound so weird.
hmphh
MY LIFE IS BRILLIANT.

Saturday, August 27, 2005

1/8 of art to go.
I CAN DO IT (:
i so believe in myself.

Endless Summer


We laughed, we cried
And all the while we felt so alive
It was you and me
You grabbed my hand and made me see
What it could feel like
And what it might be like
You wrote my name in the sand
In this endless summer
We will be together
And i dont want this feeling to ever end
Looking back in november
Feel the sun and remember
That when our time has finally come to pass
Somethings last
Somethings always last
Save goodbye
Keep it frozen in december
I need the high
To get me through the ever after
Cause now that it feels like
Its far from what it was like
When you wrote our names in the sand
In this endless summer
We will be together
And i dont want this feeling to ever end
Looking back in november
Feel the sun and remember
That when our time has finally come to pass
Somethings last
Somethings always last
It's not what it feels like
Its far from what it was like
When i wrote our name in the sand
In this endless summer
We will be together And i dont want this feeling to ever end
Looking back in november
Feel the sun and remember
That when our time has finally come to pass
Somethings last
Somethings always last
Somethings last
Somethings always last
We laughed, we cried
And all the while we felt so alive
It was you and me

This song is very beautiful.
It may not seem now.
But it really is. Ashlee Simpson's song from Autobiography special ver.
the song is really touching to hear.
and there's of course
vertical horizon's best i ever had!
i nearly cried.

Best I ever had (Grey Sky Morning)

So you sailed away
Into a grey sky morning
Now I'm here to stay
Love can be so boring

Nothing's quite the same now
I just say your name now

[Chorus]
But it's not so bad
You're only the best I ever had
You don't want me back
You're just the best I ever had

So you stole my world
Now I'm just a phony
Remembering the girl
Leaves me down and lonely

Send it in a letter
Make yourself feel better

[Chorus]
But it's not so bad
You're only the best I ever had
You don't need me back
You're just the best I ever had

And it may take some time to
Patch me up inside
But I can't take it so I
Run away and hide
And I may find in time that
You were always right
You're always right

So you sailed away
Into a grey sky morning
Now I'm here to stay
Love can be so boring

What was it you wanted
Could it be I'm haunted

[Chorus]
But it's not so bad
You're only the best I ever had
I don't want you back
You're just the best I ever had
The best I ever had
The best I ever

<3333 one tree hill!
i SO cannot stand peyton and lucas together.
ITS ANNOYING.
i want brooke and lucas.
but not cos of their characters.
just cos they are really engaged/married and they make an excellent couple
but brooke's a bitch.
and lucas is SO SO CUTE!
the way chad looks at sophia, it makes you melt.
the twinkle in his eyes makes you gush.
liyana and i so cannot take it.
i keep squealing whenever i see that twinkle.
and my momsies thinks im mad.
haha!
peyton's dad is going to die.
and COS OF THAT, she HAD to kiss him
bitch.
i hate her. actually i don't.
im just annoyed its not sophia and chad.
and haylie and nathan are a nice couple!
x)) can't wait for them to get married in the show.
but then, they will get seperated.
SHEESH.

can't wait for teacher's day hols.
going out with tab and going out with gang.
x)))))))
LOVE HOLS!

Wednesday, August 24, 2005

i've been thinking quite a bit.
everytime i get to.
in the bathroom, while going home, while coming to school, before sleeping
when i'm zoning out in class.
even as i walk to the pe place for pe.
must i think twice?

all these nice stuff has happened to me here.
i met loads of friends.
i even have the sch spirit going on.
i love taking part in enthu stuff.
like SOCIAL DAY(:
or having the VOTEFORME stickers stuck onto your back.

there's alot to remember when i go.
maybe this is like my tribute post to everything that has happened.

Friends :
i met many people.
and i made really good friends whom i know i will miss when i go.
but my gang is going with me (:
or at least part of it ...
i went to drama. in hope of getting a chance of acting on a bigger scale.
and i did.
during drama night.
during national day.
during project inkwell launch.
i know i will miss the times i spent trying my best to memorise lines.
laughing at my stupid blooper moments.
miss hanging out with friends i loved.

its really depressing to think that maybe, you might never see some of them anymore.
esp, those who are not your closest friends but are your good friends.
you get what i mean?
they may not be in your gang.
but still they mean something to you.
because of them, you feel more in place.
you feel the sense of belonging.
and its hard to leave them behind.

i will always remember many incidents.

CAMPS were great. time of bonding with new / old friends.
chapels rocked! ('cept when youknowwho sings opera style)
i will miss sitting during chapel and leaning against my friend and giggling away or watching the drummer and commenting on the musicians or the pastor of the day or even singing the christian songs when im not even a christian.
i will miss the prayers and the feeling that creeps into my heart as i listen to inspiring sermons.
i will miss the times i realised new things about myself and the time when i nearly cried during chapel when i was next to amalina and liyana.

classes may suck sometimes but i will miss them.
i will miss the home ec. rooms.
esp RUNNING around practically trying to find salt/sugar/flour/butter/etc. and always ending up the last one to get started (smiles at sneha x))
we are always the hopeless cases not knowing what to cut or do but always OVERLY enthusiastic about the day's dish..
we always manage to pull it off SOMEHOW and i will miss you sneha! if you don't come with me... that is. X))) remember we were once COOKING PARTNERS! BOOYAH!! :D
we rock the kitchen man.
with our great culinary skills and wonderful creative juices flowing out of us through our GREAT hands that create MASTERPIECES.
PS today's pizza rocked btw.

i will miss the science labs.
don't ask me why.
something about them
i LOVE the old labs
SO long and cool.
haha
i remember last year, i broke some stuff.
i think that time some people were passing by the lab and sonya and i were waving to them and suddenly they took pics of us;
MALU! haha.
and that time my filter paper broke due to my incessant prodding.
x)) and even this year, when i broke the beaker during biology and when i was the POOR person standing when the gel broke. hehee. AND the times joyce and i suffered with the horrible electrical wires looking at the disaster we had created.
the pe?!
i love PE! the track, the pathetic courts, heee. i will miss alot of things.
miss mrs kuan!
haha i won't miss mr ng but erm... would like to thank him? for being my tch?
haha. the horrible sports skills i had! haha my horrible tennis skills when i aimed wrongly and caused the ball to fly all over.
AND the stupid gym i hated! i hate gymnastics! i suck at it.
i escaped from it though ... HAHA! always was sick during those times.

i will miss the LIBRARY!
and mrs owl tan!
x))) i will miss her nagging all the time cos ama liyana and i kept yakking away LOUDLY and accidentally and cos we were laughing our heads off. 2 times we got kicked out of the library. but since we're sec2s now, she's nicer!! x) i remember her LOVING william hung.
haha! and her saying if i fell off the rocking chair the whole lb would shake.
AS IF owl.
haha
and the HORRID comps we used to play icy tower or happyland.
AND the 2nd level, where we lay on the ground trying to write songs or sneak upstairs without owl's permission.
and the useless books that never appealed to us.

the comp labs?
the GREAT internet service that let us to blast music when no one was in the lab!

sigh.. the TOILETS!
omg omg omg.
ahha i use the toilet so much.
TOILET FREAK ALERT.
i won't miss the smells.
haha but i will miss the general office BEEYOOTIFUL toilets.
x)) and i will miss our canteen.
I LOVE OUR CANTEEN.
the quadrangle? the concourse? the AUDI!!!!!!!!!!!!!
sigh i feel like crying now.
leaving all this behind me.
but a future lies ahead of me.
and i will hope for the best.
but i just want everyone to know.
that im not leaving because i don't like MGS.
instead.
MGS was the best thing that ever happened to me.
i love everything and everyone that were involved in MGS.
(besides the males)
i feel tears forming in my eyes.
i just know that i will never forget my life in MGS!
and...
im going to continue to come back to MGS to support events.

i think twice.

Saturday, August 20, 2005

okay.
seeing my POST was a little too "I-PITY-MYSELF-BE-SAD-FOR-ME"
i will be a HAPPY person.

thanks to all who tagged.
x))!
and thanks to KHAI(:
happy early birthday dearie!
I MISS YOU KHAIRUNISA BTE ... (what is it i forgot. bloody hell)
sorry.
blehh

the songs on 98.7fm right now are quite nice!
they put maureen! - MAUREEN MAUREEEEEENN
and now there's some song i like but don't know what the title is.
how do you call yourself song?
UNTITLED?
x)

and now im trying to win the KIMPOSSIBLE codebreaker thing.
I KNOW THE ANSWER.
without knowing all the letters.
i SO rock.
cos all the letters match.
YEAH maN!
i can't wait to see if i win anything.
heeeeee.
i wanna win the grand prize
i mean, A WHOLE THEATRE TO YOURSELF WITH 10 OF YOUR FRIENDS!!! HOW AWESOME?
spell it with me!
A
W
E
S
O
M
E
!
!
!

but since when did SHANTI win stuff.
never.
oh well.
i did on national level before.
for a TAMILSTORYTELLING competition.
i got 5th prize.
hey its a GOOD prize kay.
considering it was the nationals.
haha.
im damn egoistic.
and then, i won 1st for sports day before...
hurhur
as a team.
X)
and and and we won MATHSTRAIL! (:

yay electrico's running away now!
i love it i love it.
i wanna go see black eyed peas in concert.
but i never see how they sing live.
so its hard to decide if i should.

heee.
playing some retarded game on disney web.
I AM SUCH A KID.
and i have NOT done anything as homework.
i have not touched art.
i shall do it like at 9 today.
and now i will do PW.
BYE!

Friday, August 19, 2005

friday.
usually it has been a day for me to remember things.
always happens that on fridays, i cry over something or get depressed.
today i am. but this time i have no reason to be.
maybe its just the life that i'm forced to live that makes me this way. why did god make me be someone on this earth?
i know people will say i have a purpose to live.
but after about fourteens years of living, i don't see the point.
i've been through quite alot for being a fourteen year old.
i mean if a 9 year old kid saw what i saw, i don't know what she/he would have done.
if a 10 year old girl felt what i felt, i don't know what she would have been like.

but for me, i just supressed.
bottled up.
my parents are nice.
but why don't i feel the way i should?
my sister is nice.
but i don't feel the bond.
i feel forced to have friends, to study, to bathe, to eat, to listen, to say, to smile, to laugh, to be everything someone must be.
and all this is for ?
nothing.
in the end, im leaving.
i will just be burnt into ashes.
and god knows what will end up to the ash.
maybe no one will remember that i was ever there.
maybe people will cry for about 10minutes and then resume their lifes.
maybe no one will even realise im not there anymore.
i'm just that insignificant don't you think?

then i have to go through pain.
i know everyone does.
but mine's pretty complicated.
as if i wanted to feel it?
if i ever could, i would have erased all these hurtful memories.
but i can't.
i'm just stuck.
but even as i'm stuck, i can't even kill myself.
i just can't.
i don't dare to.
i will just end up in hell.
which is much worse.
but i am stuck in a no-way zone.
i can't go up or down
i can't go left or right.
i'm just made to live the way it is.
and tolerate.


.
.
.

painless days are gone.
now my heart's lost count.
once i smiled with truth
now its all a fluke.
but i never show
that i feel this way
but i never know
who made me this way
i'm just stuck alone
in this no-way zone.
good's gone.
negative.
feelings are meant to be.
freak-show is what i am
no more will i stand
any more

just bring me back to first step
i don't want to go through this again
make my mind be erased of
all this bad feelings and turn off
all my misery.
all my misunderstood me.
all my miscalculated fee.
for this life.

i just want to know.
what for i came back
i want to be up there.
somewhere.
where i am fine.
now here.
i'm lost.
crushed.
torn.
apart.
people look at me
like i am not
people look at me
like they believe
what they see
can't they see
why i'm all smiles?
why i'm all live ... ly

Thursday, August 18, 2005

you are just a fake.

did you know hilary duff got quite skinny these days?
she's even skinner than AMALINA.
she's like a HORSE now.
want a proof? let me show you one.

i know she looks kinda fat there.
but she performed at this AOL crap.
and she was wearing the I-AM-FROM-GEYLANG style slutty clothes.
who wears a micro mini black shorts, blue sleeveless and gauze fishnet-like stocking that only cover your knees AND PERFORMS>
nutto.

i'm lost in between
i don't know what to do.
its already done.
forever.
but now again.
i think.
and its hard to accept.
maybe its all ...

TEAR MY HEART OPEN!
sigh. i love scars by papa roach
i think chloe does too.
-.-
i know im a hard person to six next to.
you're subjected to my 'erm' stupidness and my weirdness.
but too bad.
haha.
but i am NICE (:

liyana amalina and i.
have devised a PLAN to salvage ourselves


HIPHOP lessons.
TENNIS lessons.
NOFASTFOOD treatment.
CONSTANT gym routines.

this way we all can be fit.
liyana can grow healthy and lose her whatever chicken figure she claims
ama can lose her non existent fats
while i will lose loads of pounds
X) PERFECT-O!

this will take place during november to december.
so that we will return to school with a fit body.
AND.
we plan to involve in CIP at bukit batok library.

i am thinking of dye-ing my hair.
but its bad for the hair.
but my hair's like half white, half gold, half brown, half black.
AHH.
and today SHE told me she likes my hair.
YOU'RE MAD!

i hate it.
its straight.
its thick.
but its multi coloured.
GARRH.
bye for now.
must go and play all the way (:

Monday, August 15, 2005

caught in between a tug of war
one side's dragging me down
the other side's tearing me apart
caught in a dilemma
maybe its what life's about
acceptance is going to be hard
but im sure life's gotta go on

some would know what im saying
others won't.
too bad.
hurhur.
oh yeah.
HEY VAL(:
haha sure,
hols are a good idea.
sms me the date!

finished history project.
doing life science.
PROKARYOTES
RIBONUCLEIC ACID
UNICELLULAR
ULTRA CENTRIFUGE
DOMINANT TRAITS
DOUBLE HELIX
CHROMOSOMES
MEIOSIS
MITOSIS

sigh covered almost each part.
but i can't remember much.
i guess its hard and i feel reluctant to study
i want to be a JOURNALIST babeee! (mel's influence)
i need to pay back to some people who misunderstood me
like ______________ and _________________ and clear things up
maybe i should start with a daily SMILE haha.
i already do that to _________________ but not ________________,
so i will DO IT.
just do it like nike.

DODO.
DUMBO.
me.
hurhur
random.
i like DUMBO the elephant
AWESOME.
though saniah disagrees
WHATEVER (gives the talk to my hand sign)
haha i hate that thing
talk to my ball .... (chloe told me)
hurhur.
so LAME.
by rachel i think
heh heh

chloe and i today were laughing quite a bit over hilary duff
mocking her songs and her
and she said britney was fat
NO SHE WASN'T
and now she is cos she's pregnant
HMPH
whatever
need to study
TATA

Sunday, August 14, 2005

HELLO.
life SUCKS.
when you're FORCED.
GAH.
liyana finds my father very friendly
I AGREE (:

liyana on the phone: tell your daddy i said HI!
me: DADA! LIYANA SAYS HI!
liyana on the phone: you actually told him???
me thinks: HEHE
me says: yupp
dad: oh okayy. hi liyana.

haha weird father.
but nice daughter loves him.
i love my momsies too..
cos she taught me physics yesterday
SO SWEET (:
even when she had just recovered from high fever.
but today she got sick again
poor thing
AND
she still cooked!!!
MYGOD.
i don't know why my mom is so nice.
i shall never abandon my parents when i grow up.
i will buy them a house, a dog, and make them live somewhere near me
and if my dada or mama get sick, i will bring them to the doctor.
this is my VOW.

i don't know how im going to live without them.
sighh.
its scary.
but its a life cycle.
people live and die.
and we have to accept it.
sighh.
'its something unpredictable...' - green day's song (i can't remember the title)

im changing my blog song soon.
its getting BORING.
haha.

- i will miss you. remember me
- i hope you realise i don't hate you
- i know you don't care but remember i do

haha DON't even try to think whose that for.
haha.
no one knows.
only me and my poor brain.
which is suffering from overload of info.
STUPID LIT.
i love lit.
but it gets dumb

liyana and i want to do ENVIRONMENTALSTUDIES.
i think it will be so ultra cool.
i want to be a JOURNALIST.
haha new ambition.
one of my career choices.
and maybe part time acting.
acting can't be your life sometimes
you will get tired.
after drama night and n. day im tired.
HAHA.
but i don't mind acting again this year.
western dance.
i shall force someone to go learn hiphop with me
MY SISTER IS GOING.
eh NO!
she's going for kickboxing.
chehh.
haha.
maybe LIYANA!
since both of us love dancing.
haha.
though i (AHEM) can't.
maybe i can.
who knows.

but one thing's for sure.
I AM NOT GOING TO BE THE DRUMMER.
i can't play drums
and are you mad chloe?
WAKE ME UP WHEN SEPTEMBER ENDS?!
ahh.
i will die.
NO WAY.
you ask me to erm... be backup singer is okay
drummer?
FORGET IT.
hehehee.
cos i will do the 1234 beat (basics) or the 8beat one or the 1234 beat with the alternate bass thing. and my fill ins SUCK.
haha. maybe i should ask hongie to help me.
but forget it.
i won't master it by school of rock
HEH HEH.
i don't mind playing for erm christina aguilera's (somesongthat's damn slow)
there's only ONE beat throughout the whole song.
OR.
hoobastank's the reason
their drums is not too complicated i think.

i wrote a new song called END OF TIME.
reminds me of marion raven's END OF ME.
but HECK!

i am going to flop all 3 tests this week.
GREAT.
i love my life.
(NOT).
blehh.
i have to revise lit.
'atticus was related by blood or marriage to nearly every family..'
'but remember, its a sin to kill a mockingbird'
'deadest shot'
HAHA.
'thank who?'
yay. i at least can remember like kiam chai anyhow.
HAHA.
goodie.
i suck at studies.
how nice.

oh yes oh yes.
suja i will miss you too.
HAHA.

Saturday, August 13, 2005

HEY.
this week has been loads of crap.
like TOTAL NONSENSE.
monday sucked cos of PW.
haha.
so stressful.
TUESDAY rocked cos of hols.
wednesday rocked cos of HISTORY!
so fun doing videos with you guys man! (:

thursday was so-so.
labrador park.
interesting.
but tiring and freaking hot.
lucky i had my NAVY cap with me!
kudos for that
berlayer plaza was CRAP.
secret tunnel was fun but a little scary and hot.
lucky vicky was there.
haha i rmb us being scared.
rmb the blood? hahahaa. it was achlee iron.
and kristina also was there
HEHE. and beulah.
and sneha
and mansi and azzy and everyone.
amelia! jo! hee.
okay nvm.
rocky seashore was FUN!
i liked the limpets
they were so tiny and cute
and i liked mrs chong teaching.
quite cool to understand hands-on.

AMALINA YOU GUYS ARE SUCH MEAN POKS. ):
haha.
you guys know why horrr.
i like i like the RAIN!
it started to rain there.
so nice so awesome.
and lucky sneha sat next to me on the bus.
we were doing our dance moves
HAHA>
hilarious.
SNEHA AND PRASANTHI - PART1 PART2
READY TO ROCK PEOPLE??
haha.
it was lame
and our stupid caps and poseur moves.
heee.

then friday was CARNIVAL!
i don't get why some said it sucked.
cos it didn't!
and some loser army guys were DAMNLOSER.

okay first loser came erm when SNEHAMANSIAZZYANDI were walking towards the tank place.

the guy : EH YOU GUYS FROM WHAT SCH?
me thinks : ALOHA! WAKEUP! LOOK AT OUR SHIRTS LA LOSER> MGS! DUH DUH DUH. bodoh head
sneha: MGS.
the guy : Oh the future leaders of singapore right?
me thinks : you probably tell every school that as if i didn't know but its actually the FUTURE STARS of singapore. mgs girls ROCK.
US: hahaha okayyyy
the guy: EH IF I HAVE FINANCIAL PROBLEMS I COME TO YOU ALL
me thinks : you come also i don't want. im not some financial broker.
US: haha yeah yeah byeee (exasperatedly)

then 2nd loser was when i was in the tank some sch kid.

i was busy waving at strangers who waved at me
one loser showed us the middle finger.
HELLO? its so not cool.
its too poseur so GIVE IT UP YOU PATHETIC THING.

3rd loser was this guy at the adventure ride place

me gets onto the vehicle struggling and sits onto one of the belts.
the guy goes : oh erm could you get up for a little. the belt the belt.
me: er... okayy.
he removes the belt and says: left belt to left right to right
me crisscrossed the belt cos i din hear him
he: NO.... left belt to LEFT. right belt to RIGHT
me still crisscrossed cos i din hear him
he: NO NO NO.... left to left (takes the belt and helps...) and RIGHT TO RIGHT (helps me) okay? see? okay right?
me thinks: sighh i malu-ed myself eeeeeyerrr. in front of a loser who can't seem to explain well.
he: okay girl.... (i have a name and its not girl) if you're scared hold on to the belt okay?
me thinks: the belt IS NOT EVEN SECURE AND ITS LOOSE! if I HOLD ON I WILL FALL...
me says: haha okayy fine.
he: BYEEE
sheesh.
he's damn loser la.
and me too a bit

4th loser is the traffic person army dude.

sneha's shirt was ultra long covering her shorts andher bag was also blocking the shorts from his view.

he says: GIRL WHERE'S YOUR SKIRT??? (he thinks all mgs girls have to wear the uni)
sneha: er... im wearing shorts!

HAHA SO FUNNY SO FUNNY.
i laughed when sneha told me.
sheesh man,.
hilarious.
better go and study now.
BYE!

Tuesday, August 09, 2005

seeing lots of emotions these days.
sadness.
depression.
disappointment.
leaving is hard don't you think?
some migrate.
some transfer.
some just remain.
some just don't seem close to you anymore.
why do we just drift away?
once there was a sense of belonging.
now its just like 'we 're here. so we're together'
maybe its not right anymore?

...

.
.
.
.

oh yeah
let me stop now.
i need to say this.

THE ADVENTURES OF THE FRIENDLY ANIMALS - to be aired on Nickelodean soon

STARRING!!

Liyana Lastri Bte Abdul Razak - Ms Chicken
Nurul Amalina Bte Jamaludin - Ms Frog
Prasanthi d/o Ganapathy Ram- Ms Polar Bear
Sheena Hong Yumei - (yet to be filled. HURRY UP SHEE!)

this is our cartoon.
we shall make ama and shee draw.
liyana will choreography dance moves.
and i will do script.
HEHE. and we will create our theme song!

maybe it will be like

-
Come join the friendly animals
Who are going on a ride
Join the froggie and chicken
Who are so cute all the while
Then comes Polar Bear
she's so furry with hair
Then comes little ol' Chicken
she's like the future bacon
Then cute froggie comes to FriendlyLand
She's so slimy with no hands!

HAHA. so retarded.
i made it up.
of course.

Monday, August 08, 2005

sighh.
IP causes so much pain.
just too much.

everyone's like leaving the past and carrying on to a new future.
while i am stuck here alone waiting to see if i get into nj.
which is probably a NO.
because of my screwed and flopped interview.
i think.
i know therow will leave.
will split.
will be destroyed.
but long distance isn't that bad right?
we can still call.
but i don't think it will ever be the same.
i know this sounds selfish.

but if you leave?
take me with you.
if you stay?
i'll stay here with you.
just don't let me be alone.
i can't.
its hard.
i did it once.
and im regretting it.
i don't want to regret once more.

life's hard.
when you finally settle in comfortably.
and have to change out of there once more.
just because changes have to be constantly welcomed.
cos its part of the cycle of life.
but must i accept it that way?
can't i let things go my way?
i wish. i want. i must.
but these never come true.
its always GOD's will.
sometimes his will is good.
or sometimes it makes you feel terrible.
but GOD never goes wrong.
and so neither will you.

but must i stick to the
'friends are only temporary in life' statement?
i don't want to agree.
because one way or another, i made good friends.
we went through our fair shares of ups and downs.
conflicts reconcilation.
cries and shouts.
we did.
maybe i am the only one thinking this way.
i just involve myself too emotionally.
maybe i will cry at the end of this post.
maybe its just wrong to think the others will be this way.
maybe i should try and let go of these emotions.

but just want you to know,
i love you people.
as good friends.
so no matter how far we may go,
we must somehow have a living bond.
lasting bond.
and make sure it never dies down.

one may go to the UK.
the other may go to the US.
one may go to the AUS.
the other may go to NZ.
but no matter where we decide to live,
remember there used to be us once upon a time.
because i know i remember.
and i will when the time comes again.
time capsule isn't such a bad idea afterall.
i wish we could re-do this whole experience again.
it's nice to feel everything afresh again.
but these selfish wishes never will be granted

life just has to go on.
i will let it go on.
maybe we could end up together.
or some of us may be left behind.
but no matter what,
we are still US.
and will always be.

<33 shanti forever.

Sunday, August 07, 2005

I LOVE AVATARS.
ASHLEE ROCKS!
AND LINDSAY!
AND JESSICA!

okay. whatever. byebye

Saturday, August 06, 2005

music in my head : 4ever by the veronicas

its a really nice and catchy song.
just heard it on AOL music.
quite good.
alot of new stars to dig.
like the faders have an excellent sound.
go check out THICKE!
i love the song when i get you alone (i think its that title)
and sum41's pieces is really nice.

i just finished my carpe diem essay
1269 words.
YES!
i have a short story.
i know it sucks.
but heck.
as long as i have something to submit to flim.
she did force me.
but i guess its okay.

YAY!
i think history project is gonna be at my house!
WHEE!
so fun.
oh yeah.


VOTE FOR M.A.P.S!
WE PROVIDE THE OVERVIEW FOR EVERYTHING!

haha publicity stunt.
for the elections process.
i can't wait to do the project.
on monday, pw has to be done.
SO STRESSFUL.
and tonight i'm going to study literature / do art and maths.
which one to do.

i think art should be done soon.
maybe tomorrow.
i can do maths now.
so TATA!
and then i will study lit.
i love tkmb.

BYE!

Friday, August 05, 2005

<33 you guys!


ARGH! BIG UGLY BEETLE!

EW.
EW.
EW.
EW.
momsies!!!!
waaa.

hmph.
ok these are my career choices.
1)MOVIE Actress (far-fetched but worth a dream)
2) TV/ BROADWAY ACTRESS (far-fetched but i would love that)
3) Author of teen-based books
4) Marine Biologist (marine animals rock! and i want to save the world!)
5) Talk-Show Host ( IWANTTOINTERVIEWFAMOUSSTARS!)
6) Choreographer (dance. no one knows but i have loads of dance ideas in my head)
7) HEAD OF UNITED NATIONS (once again to save the world!)
8) Scientist who specialises in finding out about global warming
9) Singer (Though i would make a BAD one. haha. oh wells!)
10) Child Psychologist

okay. these are my top 10 list!
haha.
i have to think of some careers to say tmr.
SHIT la.
i never prepare anything.
DIE DIE DIE.

at the library right now.
being a dedicated friend
and waiting for amalina and liyana to finish cca.
cos we have to go for the sb lecture!
wheeeeee
so fun!
haha first lecture in life.
hope i don't sleep
I PRAY,
that my heart will be unbroken!
haha that was incomplete lyrics.

just had the subject briefing,
which made me even more confused.
but i will only take FULL GEOG and HALF LIT
ORRR
FULL LIT and HALF GEOG>
nothing else
no sireee.
haha

and just got the shock of my life when mrs chong changed the labrador groups.
SICKENING!
i was so happy with my grouping.
and then she suddenly picks out the last nameson the groups list and MINE WAS LAST!
i told sneha not to write mine the last.
MY INSTINCTS WERE RIGHT.
seee
seee
hmph.
its all cos of ...
BLA>
so annoyed.

all cos of you
i had to change
all cos of you
i hate my day
all cos of you
i want to say
all cos of you
i have no way

HAHA that wasnt meant to belinked with labrador
I SEE AMA AND LI!!!!!
AHH!!!
BYE!!
(:
im mad.

Wednesday, August 03, 2005

blackened my soul

i just want you to know
is SUCH a nice song
by backstreet boys.
- i wish that i could believeee that there's a day...

what a beautiful song.
bsb's lyrics are getting deeper
and more meaningful
rather than the lame
- BACKSTREET'S BACK ALRIGHT!
haha.
though that song's nice

i want incomplete
to be my wedding song.
haha.
OR.
mario's let me love you
because both songs
are so NICE!

and i think cry is beautiful
that song's by mandy moore.
i mean to think a guy
would cry for YOU!
my my my
so touching.
i would cry if a guy cried for me.
haha which will never happen.
maybe it will.
i shall HOPE.

sigh.
national day
so much work
ALL COS OF ND!
tamil project.
drama stuff.
GAH!
and i still have the 'seize the day' carpe diem competition to write my essay for.
like what the hell could i write for seize the day????
i mean its about seizing an opportunity
what do i know about that?
sigh.
i better go and do it now.

get my creative juices worked up
before embarking onto HORRID
projects.

sigh
the story seems weird.
OH WELL.
its okay.
at least has a passable range of vocabulary
greatly improved with the help of the microsoft theasaurus.
haha HOW DO YOU SPELL THAT?
ok emily says its nice.
GOOD.
so be it.

Tuesday, August 02, 2005

geography's in 10minutes!!!

damn it
i am so going to fail geog.
i studied.
but not so much.
sighh.
terracing is nice.
irrigation isn't nice.
SIGH.

history is in like about 85 minutes time.
another test.
GREAT.
at least there's recess to depend on.
to last-minute mug.
hurhur.
sigh some bitches are hard to stand.

- belly dancer by AKON
it rocks!
- maureen by fountains of wayne
LOVE it!
- you're beautiful by james blunt
SO NICE! thankew i knowyoumeantme!

hahahaha.
ok bettter go.
flim''s like walking around now.
oopsie.
mrs lim i meant.

why did i even go?