okay.
today shall be a list of my all-time favourite songs.

IN NO PARTICULAR ORDER

1. Backstreet Boys - The Call
2. Destiny's Child - Survivor
3. Bosson - One in a Million
4. Coldplay - Clocks
5. Coldplay - Yellow
6. Coldplay - Speed Of Sound
7. Backstreet Boys - Backstreet's Back
8. Backstreet Boys - Climbing the Walls
9. Backstreet Boys - Incomplete
10. Backstreet Boys - Drowning
11. Mandy Moore - I Wanna Be with You
12. Mandy Moore - Cry
13. Mandy Moore - Only Time
14. Britney Spears - Everytime
15. Britney Spears - Someday I will Understand
16. Britney Spears - Lucky
17. Britney Spears - Stronger
18. Christina Aguilera - I turn To You
19. Christina Aguilera - Beautiful
20. Christina Aguilera - Fighter
21. N'sync - Gone
22. N'sync - Pop
23. Madonna - Music
24. Jennifer Lopez - Let's Get Loud
25. Jennifer Lopez - My Love don't Cost a Thing
26. Jennifer Lopez - I'm Real
27. Jennifer Lopez - Play
28. Jennifer Lopez - If you had my love
29. Michelle Branch - Everywhere
30. Michelle Branch - All you Wanted
31. Vanessa Carlton - A Thousand Miles
32. Blue - All Rise
33. Blue - Too Close
34. Blue - If you come back
35. Blue - Fly By
36. Blue - Best in Me
37. Blue - Curtains Fall
38. Blue - Bubbling
39. Jessica Simpson - Irresistable
40. Jessica Simpson - Angels
41. Ashlee Simpson - Unreachable
42. Ashlee Simpson - Undiscovered
43. Ashlee Simpson - Lala
44. Ashlee Simpson - Autobiography
45. Ashlee Simpson - Better Off
46. Ashlee Simpson - Love Me For Me
47. Ashlee Simpson - Surrender
48. Pink - Get the Party Started
49. Pink - Feel Good Time
50. Pink - Just like A pill
51. LFO - Every Other Time
52. Smash Mouth - All Star
53. Bon Jovi - Its My Life
54. Goo Goo Dolls - Iris
55. Chad Kroeger - Hero
56. Creed - My Sacrifice
57. Linkin Park - Crawling
58. Linkin Park - In the End
59. Linkin Park - One Step Closer
60. Linkin Park - Breaking The Habit
61. Linkin Park - From The Inside
62. Linkin Park - Nobody's Listening
63. Sum 41 - Fat Lip
64. Sum 41 - In Too Deep
65. Sum 41 - Still Waiting
66. Sum 41 - What We're All About
67. Sum 41 - We're All To Blame
68. Sugababes - Round Round
69. Sugababes - Hole In The Head
70. Good Charlotte - Lifestyles of the Rich and Famous
71. Good Charlotte - Girls and Boys
72. Good Charlotte - Mountain
73. Good Charlotte - Predictable
74. Good Charlotte - We believe
75. Good Charlotte - The world is Black
76. Blink 182 - What's My Age Again?
77. Blink 182 - I Miss You
78. Blink 182 - Down
79. Blink 182 - All The Small Things
80. Blink 182 - Anthem
81. Avril Lavigne - Things I'll Never Say
82. Avril Lavigne - Losing Grip
83. Avril Lavigne - Complicated
84. Avril Lavigne - Take Me Away
85. Avril Lavigne - Together
86. Avril Lavigne - How does it Feel
87. Avril Lavigne - Freak Out
88. Foo Fighters - Best Of You
89. Lindsay Lohan - Over
90. Lindsay Lohan - Something I never Had
91. Lindsay Lohan - Disconnected
92. Lindsay Lohan - Magnet
93. Lindsay Lohan - Very Last Moment In Time
94. Kelly Clarkson - Miss Independent
95. Kelly Clarkson - Breakaway
96. Kelly Clarkson - Gone
97. Kelly Clarkson - Behind These Hazel Eyes
98. Kelly Clarkson - Addicted
99. Mariah Carey - We Belong Together
100. Mariah Carey - Through the Rain

The List is NOT over. stay tuned to my next post. BYE!
and now enjoy my own song, called AWAY.


AWAY


look down the memory lane
and everything's about to make
me hide away hide away
feel along the memory trail
and everything's out to get me
to cry away cry away
the times i thought that it was all ok
the times i felt that it was to be this way
the times i never ever thought
of looking of feeling


look down the memory lane
and everything's about to make
me hide away hide away
feel along the memory trail
and everything's out to get me
to cry away cry away
the pain i felt when i had to leave
the pain i saw when you saw me leave
the pain i knew that made both us need
to look to feel

look down the memory lane
and everything's about to make
me hide away hide away
feel along the memory trail
and everything's out to get me
to cry away cry away
just away
with me
just away
with you
just away
with us
just leave right away

look down the memory lane
and everything's about to make
me hide away hide away
feel along the memory trail
and everything's out to get me
to cry away cry away
the times i thought that it was all ok
the times i felt that it was to be this way
the times i never ever thought
of looking of feeling


look down the memory lane
and everything's about to make
me hide away hide away
feel along the memory trail
and everything's out to get me
to cry away cry away
the pain i felt when i had to leave
the pain i saw when you saw me leave
the pain i knew that made both us need
to look to feel

look down the memory lane
and everything's about to make
me hide away hide away
feel along the memory trail
and everything's out to get me
to cry away cry away
just away
with me
just away
with you
just away
with us
just leave right away

but the world is black

i love that song.
good charlotte's the chronicles of life and death
gets so addictive when you listen
to it on repeat mode
and so is ashlee simpson's autobiography
ashlee, you ROCK!

today sucked.
we've got a new english assignment.
then life science,
the well broke.
but ms yeo said it was okay
cos we still had the other wells.
you know something?
ms yeo ROCKS!

she's so cute.
she's so nice.
she's so sweet.
and oh so kind.

haha. i made her a rhyme
how sweet.
but seriously, she rocks!
she can teach.
at least i understand and enjoy lifescience
but while physics is confusing me
ms or is nice.
but.
its hard to grasp concepts when i usually zone out.
only when i personally ask her,
i get it.
i want ONETO-ONE!

shits.
there's tamil tomorrow.
fcuk.
haha got that from mel yonggie.
eh girl,
we rocked and chilled at COLD storage
how COOL...
*total lame

we were busy copying down prices from cold storage crap.
so nice hor?
cold storage is EXPENSIVE.
i held mel's can of mushrooms!! so nice!
haha LAME>
and the brand NOFRILLS rocks! they have cheapskate stuff.
and creative zen mp3 crap is not good.
haha.
i think.
or apparently.
so it seems.
whatever.

i am so going to be EMBARASSED on national day
YO! lesley. let's be ahbeng. ONECENT!! [inside joke]
sheena's nice to talk to on the phone.
at least she plays the piano for me.
and i love the depressing piece she played.
<333333

dan brown's da vinci code.
is lying on my table now.
with open arms.
calling out to me.
trying to drag me into the mystery.
but i defy.
i try hard to look at words like arid land.
and TRY SO HARD.
and it worked!
yes!

4 tests next week.
HISTORY (DONE!)
GEOGRAPHY(NOT YET!)
TAMIL (CAN'T STUDY. NOTHING TO STUDY)
HOME EC( ER... are you mad?)

i really need to learn lead guitar.
i want to compose songs.
like sheena can.
she can compose.
AT LEAST>
while i stir up a tune in my head
and forget it minutes later.

AND.
i need my kickboxing course from my sister.
she learns.
but never teaches me.
haha.
and i just broke my glasses.
HURRAY.
all hail my stupidness.
actually, it broke by ITSELF!
the screw came loose dunno when
and my lens dropped onto my lap while i was chatting with hong!
and i realised my screw was gone!
and i was walking around holding my lensless glasses and holding the lens against the frame trying to look for my spare glasses.

my sister was laughing like mad cow.
MOOHAHAHAMOOHAHAHA.
who laughs like that?
so retarded.
thats my favourite word.

I <33333
my world.

don't be a fake. come back.

fakes are hard to understand. they put on a new face just to cover their own. just to hide themselves. just to get away. be someone else. they are just not what they can be. but they probably forgot who they were cos of how long they have pretended. its scary. to be someone. and gradually change into another. and be the other.
false lies false act

today was a sucky day.
i mean started off with free period.
where i practically stoned.
and groaned.
hurhur.
oh yes!
publicity stunt!
M.A.P.S. Party. We are there for YOU! Overviewing everything. Looking into everyone's needs. We WILL fight for YOUR rights.
- Mansi, Azzizah, Prasanthi, Sneha


heeee!
jesse de silva's hawt.
i love life science!
but today, the dna thing
it was freaking transparent
that i couldn't see a THING.
and i contaminated 2 eppendoff tubes.
dumbass.
hee.
oh wells. its not that bad.
and i think the water bath or buff thing is so COOL!
and eppendoff tubes so rock.

sports carnival - NO.
acsi drama nite - NO.
ri drama nite- DUH NO!
things that im not going for definitely.
but im reconsidering whether to go for the NUS programme.
and i really want to go for sangai muzhangu (indian show)

rooster ROCKS!
i love nick.
haha no i dont.

bohemian rocks.
i love boho.
boho-CHIC.
topshop has some boho stuff.
espirit jackets are a beauty.
and i seriously want khaki cargos.
and i need 2 pairs of earrings.
and i don't want to be an USHER for stupid uptlc nite.
i have to wear sch blazer and all.
YUCKS ):

anyway,
gtg study history
6 more pages babeh.
and
I'm
SO
DONE!

hey people.

i realised a certain 'passer by' has tagged my blog.
of course if i ask who you are,
you probably won't reply.
but heck.
thanks for your 'concern'.
but of course i am whatever you said. kind, sweet, caring.
just that you are unlucky enough not to have realised that.
too bad hey?
oh wells.
thanks for increasing tags on my tagboard.
you are welcome to tag more
x) peace
and besides i don't want a guy.
im not desperate.
so get your facts right

anyway,
today was a great day.
RIGHT.
maths test sucked.
i wrote the stupid equation wrongly
im just hoping mrs poh gives me mercy marks.
then came stupid art.
im pleased with my pictures.
much better than i expected.
but the worst was having to miss the auditions.
stupid woman.
why couldn't she make it at 1.45?!
she only could come at 2.15
oh hell.
its not like i will die.

i didn't know that crows attacking even happened.
had this retard assignment today
for english
to write an eye-witness account
and i saw this hilarious article
bout this poor old dude being attacked
incessantly by these merciless crows.
quite a hilarious image.
but painful.
he actually bled from the attack.
that's scary.

amalina, i do not sound desperate.
its just stating a fact.
i mean you DO agree tyler's hot.
too bad in real life guys are so ...
CRAP.
esp. in singapore.
but oh well.
there should be someone out there.

i'm sorry for everything
hope you're okay.

tyler hilton's hot!
and i love 'how love should be'
lindsay lohan's great!
i love her movie lifesize.
made liyana and me cry.

she rocks! <33


Mobile woman, buckle down your boots
If you leave me, what else can I do?
Well I've been a dancer, I’ve been a dancer all my life
But I'm not dancing ‘round this one tonight
And I know I'd be doing fine

Without you believin’ in always picking up and thinking about leaving
Once you stick around then that's when I'll show you happiness the world can see
That's how love should be

tyler's hawt.
like so hawt.
haha.
so is chad m.m!
so is sean biggerstaff.
so is HAYDEN <3333

i haven't done ANY homework.
should get started on lifescience and maths.
then this afternoon will finish art.
ART ROCKS!
-.- '''
SO NOT.
but its good in the sense that
i get to express my
depression.
but erm...
people
i never got drugged okay!
haha
my drawings got one picture
of a cocktail drink with a drug falling into it
im SO sadistic
and there was never a GUY in my life.
as in guy guy.
its just my depiction of depression.

oh yeah.
right now,
i want BACKSTREET BOYS cd!
and WEEZER cd.
the guys in weezer are so hilariously NERD.
sighhh.
god bless their souls
i bet someone thinks i am some freaking nerd CUM. freak CUM. loser.
which i am not.
DUH.
i bet that someone is just a bitch in the head.
hurhur.

im not a nerd cos i dun go around wearing high pants, thick glasses and study all day long.
im not a freak cos i dun do things continuously over and over again for no reason whatsoever.
im not a loser cos i barely even take part in stuff that will lead me to losing OR winning.

so basically im ME.


i LOVE one tree hill!
james lafferty's hot.
chad's hot.
i LOVE O.C!!!
ben's hot.
adam's hot.
i LOVE charmed!
drew's hot (though he's no more in the show)
the girls rock!
i LOVE desperate housewives!!
eva longaria is HOT! [im not lesbian]
funny show!
i LOVE freaky friday
CHAD'S SO HOT!

to chad michael murray:
you know, you should seriously think of having the hairstyle you had in FREAKYFRIDAY. its seriously hot! and please stop doing those killer frowns. it tends to 'kill' me if you get what i mean. i hope sophia and you will have a great life ahead together

love, shanti!


to hayden christensen:
did you know you're super hot! but please change your latest hairstyle. sucks! but one thing's for sure, keep working out. you're seriously fit. haha. and go get yourself your girlfriend before people really think you're a GAY! NO!!!!

love, shanti! <33


bye!

have the decency to ask.
don't assume.
damn.


sighness.
no one ever listens to me do they?
what asshole-ic nature
fcuk.

im really pissed/depressed/annoyed/cheated now.
thought i could ignore.
but i realised i can't.
again and again.
what the hell is wrong with my life?!



as if i would. no i won't. just go. don't ask. great. assumptions suck dint you know? damn you. ashh.

burn up your soul.


its petty. its crapp. its shit. its bitched. its horrid. its sucky. but i don't care



how dare you think its all finished? how dare you think its all over? how dare you think i don't remember? how dare you think you're no more in my watch?



tortured. deprived. stuck. lost. been there. been here. bull-.basically. consider me dead R.I.P.

that's my depression.
see you later.
NOT.
get lost.

(this is to no one reading)

i wish i didn't even start it

RACIAL HARMONY <33 2d!

never seen 2d this bonded!
came in with full force.
even cynthia wore punjabi suit! (sponsered by yours truly :D)
though we didn't win,
i think we still did a pretty good job
everyone looked so pretty!
rona's new indian style.
gwen's cute colourful baju.
sneha's hot 25year old woman look.
mansi's kiddo chinese little (gongxigongxi girl on tv *quote from chloe) haha.
sighh.
wish we had started our little 'fullforce' thing long time back
OH WELL!
never too late!
THANKS WHOEVER WHO CHEERED ME DURING THE POEM READING!

haha the poem reading went on easy.
thanks mariko for your nice comment.
but so malu-fying.
i mean, a POEM! that makes no sense whatsoever to me.
oh wells.
and right now
I AM EXTRA-ly PISSED!

cos i have missed 3 consecutive fridays of geog.
as in parts of it.
first was for that darn NE quiz.
second for the emcee-ing of the founders day thing.
lastly, and final one (I HOPE!), for this poem

i will not tolerate anymore of this nonsense.
SHEESH. god god god.
time for a song.
feel inspired by something.
its gonna be hopeless.
oh wells.

inside out

caught in between this bond
feel so lost when you're gone
never thought that you were so much
to me
been through this once again
saw the consequence of pain
never thought that you were meaning
everything
to my life
for all this while
through the time
of my life
its just like

you creeped through me
inside out
like you own me
i don't know what to say
just lost cos you went your own way
you just left me hanging
inside out
you don't know what to do
when i tell you
you made me
go crazy inside out

when i fall again
when i lose my way
i hope to see you say
that you will help anyway
when i cry my tears
when i can't face my fears
i hope to find you holding
my hand making it all clear

DRAMA NITE <333 ALL! I NEARLY CRIED. LOVE YOU ALL SO MUCH!!!

i <33333333333333 everyone so bad.
haha as in like SISTERS.
no weird wild thoughts pls.
i miss drama nite.
i could re-do the whole process over and over again.
just do it again.
and have that feeling again.
be someone else again.
look different again.
experience royalty again.
feel the attention.
meet new friends.
become good friends.
get recognition.
hang out for rehearsals.
complain about directors.
complain about stress.
practice lines.
input all emotions into one single performance.

OMG! I LOVE DRAMA!
i never knew it made such an impact on me
now its time to thank EVERYONE.
no order okay?

let's start with KELLY (:

hey kelly! thanks for always trying to make the INFANTA cast do better in our acting and encouraging us so much! without you, i dont think we would have even done this well! you and your 'i will cry okay' threats! haha. and thanks for ALWAYS replying my sms-es about weird stuff like what to wear and ALL! and you're a really really lovely girl! and both you and kathleen are nice to hug!! haha <3333

next is MICHELLE LESLEY
HEY LESLEY! omg. you just make me smile dear. being my jnr, you are like so nice though you're a chairman and a prefect. you are so so not proud! and i love doing crap with you man! we had serious talks. and i love dancing with you babe! -ain't no hollaback girl. ain't no hollaback girl. hahaha! and our 'copy stacey' cheerleader moves. hahaha! now stace will know we did that. haha and you're my TEDDY. <333333!

now comes CARA NICOLE NEO
hey daughter! haha! you are so like born-princess. and pls pls pls don't steal my hayden from me! PLEASE> do that for your mommy. loved to go thru lines with you. all of us laughing together. climbing the ladder! you are one brave mama!! haha. climbing up there for the first time. haha! my inspiration. man and you can sing girl! all my friends say you can act too! I AGREE. you should seriously become some actress la. you and your hot sexy bodaye! haha. you look good with your gown. unlike me. oh wells. LOVE YOU!

next is STACEY WEE
hey stace! hahaha. never knew you much last year. but now, i know you much better! haha you're one funny great hot chick la! you are so skinny! tsktsk. go eat! haha. and you and your very funny wardrobe last nite. haha topsyturvy. get what i mean? haha. i can't believe you dared to do that!!! sighh. you are one cute narrator. always stressing out before going on stage. but we always do dumb stuff backstage right? all the dumb moves. with michelle! haha you looked hot la last nite. the outfit was nice! haha and i think charles and keith is nice too! your shoes were cute man. sighh. you kept holding my hand last nite! hahahaah! so nervous for what? Look at how you improvised! you go girl!!! <33

next is VALERIE FOO!
HEY VAL (: hahahahahaha. man. i din know you were such a nice person la! omg. omg. valerie foo. i told you din't i? have confidence in yourself. you started off with not believing in yourself. and NOW?! you just pulled it off!! dear listen. YOU CAN ACT. so just believe yourself alot more! YOU CAN DO IT. and thanks for those nice comments you would say about me. hahaha. sighh. AND AND AND. thanks for the GREAT hospitality!! haha your house! and was that your mom? or someone who helped me to dry my hair?
SO NICE! i love your house too. its so cozy. sighh. <3333 you loads. and don't cry babe!

POON MEIWAI!
WAIMEI! hahahahaa. you're the most happiest person i have ever seen la! you always smile. and you have the CUTEST frown!!! OH.MY.GOD. you're just awesome okay. you and val both keep being scared about your scenes! but you did really well last nite! MAKING PEOPLE LAUGH! and you looked good ok. your makeup was better than mine. you are just someone anyone will want to cheer them up. no matter how stressed i could get, you're always there with your adorable smiles making me smile too! thankew so much dear! <333

UH OH.
i have so little time left. and so much i have written
okok. i am so sorry to the ppl who are gonna be thanked with short messages! I WILL WRITE MORE I PROMISE. next time x)

ok. serene : thanks for saying you teared or sth when you saw me perform and trust me you are a real nice and soft-spoken girl!!

next comes chui: hahaha you're real cute! STOP THE WHOLE QUEEN THING la. all hail me huh? haha. you're funny and nice to have fun with.

next is mariko: YOU AH! you talk alot man! haha. but make me laugh all the same. everytime must warn you not to talk too loudly. and thanks for the pink top girl! haah. you and wanjing fight fight. hilarious man. but dun annoy poor wanjing hor!

next is wanjing!: hahaha. you're so cute man! i love your whole bullfight thing. and you know sth? you're real sweet. telling cara and me and everyone else that we looked pretty and all. and you know what? YOU DID TOO!!! omg. i died seeing you in a skirt. so adorable. love you la! haha

next is dah: haha dahlia yeo. funny girl who complains about her non-existent fats. WEIRD is what i think that is. and you and stacey trying on my shoes. size9 LA. where can fit you all. and and. you changing with stacey wrapping you with curtains. daring person. haahaaa. sighh love! haha

next is sherylene: you are interesting. i dunno why. but you just are. hahaa. different from others. just different. in a good way that is. ahaha. thanks for being part of the cast okay! din hug you last nite. oopsie. oh wells! haha i shall make up for that with this big big THANKEWWW!!!

next is dorothy: hey dorrr! haha. your magic trick. interesting. and i got so scared when your hyperventilating started! OMG. i really hope you are okay with that now. and your magic trick went fine! OKAY! don't worry dear. drama nite WAS a blast! DON't WORRy. haha

next is melissa: haha you backstage babe! NICE TO HUG GIRL! and i kept stressing out in front of you right? hahahaahahaa. you're so NICE man. wassit you with the one about 'one guy pulled apart in five different ways?' hahaha! sighh. and you helped me quite a bit ok! getting my lost uni for me! thanks! <3

next is daniella(DO I SPELL IT LIKE THIS?): haha heY!! thanks for helping with my skirt! sighh. why are all the sec1s so nice?! sighh. nice people. love you! thanks alot girl!

next is kathleen: KATH! YOU ARE SO NICE TO HUG! AND SO ENCOURAGING. you are really cute you know. you and your sis. both smile until there's barely no eyes to be seen! haha. thanks for helping with my falling skirt! and hugging me last nite and reassuring me! love!

next is prim rose: haha costume girl. you are quite fashionable i must say. but it ended up with you not doing my hair for me! haha oh wells!! you're real nice anyway! nice to know you prim!

next is shu en (is that how you spell it?): haha you and shabana. very funny. whenever shabana asked 'does it look better' you will be like 'it still looks the same' haha. and thanks for running to get the hair spray and spraying my head! haha wassit you? i think it was! I HOPE. haha if not my hair would have fallen.

next is shabana: hahahaa. you are one superwoman man! YOU SAVED MY MAKEUP! haha with my lost revlon skin lightner or something. thanks so much! and my hair. so sorry it was thick like mad! so so sorry! haha. but thanks for tying my hair nicely at first. and saving it 25minutes before showtime!!! omg. my hair came loose! and you finally appeared and saved it! thanks so much!

next is lydia(i think that's you): haha hey! you are a nice girl man. i rmb mich and i with you all sitting down thinking about the costume. you put the lipstick for me right? THANKS!!! the lipstick that mrs lim said made me look better or wtv. haha thanks thanks thanks!

next is my favourite DEBORAH!: deb. you know what? you make such a nice assistant director! YOU CAN ACT! you could act almost any role ok! you knew everyone's lines and always helped as a fill-in. omg! you were the best okay. THE BEST> and you always reassure me about how i look and said my lines and all! THANKS THANKS THANKS! HUGGGGGSS! <33333 [and i dun care if you typed my name wrongly! x)]

next is char: HEY CHARMAINE!haha. sighh. i couldn't do much with you. cos you were front of house. oh well i still love you all the same! and thanks for the hugs!!! hahaha! SO NICE OF YOU! thanks so much!

next is dannette( i think): another one who suffered with my hair! too thick huh? ANYWAY, thanks for attempting!!! THANKS SO MUCH. i love everyone who helped me. haha thanks alot! though i don't know you.

next is rongxin?: you dunno me i think. haha i shall just thank you for putting my erm eyeshadow on for me! thanks!

next is rowanda?( i dunno how to speel dear): HEYY! you are so nice! you helped me alot! keeping my costume. helping me get my shoes last nite?! trying to get my makeup off my face! holding my earrings! and all! LOVE LOVE LOVE! SO NICE!!!

i hope i thanked everyone ok!
sighh.
oh yeah EMMA PANG: you and your weird jokes or wtv. haahahaha. oh wells THANKS FOR ALL YOU HAVE DONE.
bYE! must do work!

hey.
i am right now irritated.
why?
i hate geog! so boring!

that's why.
typing notes now.
yeah so i know, usable land used for agriculture, building factories, etc.
non usable land used for NOTHING. cos they have been damaged thru mining, overcultivation, natural disasters, etc. and there is land scarcity.

great. i actually learnt something.
i'm not that dumb after all.
i had a bad dream this morning.
like at 6plus.
dreamt that my dad ...
gone
i cried when i got up.
you know.
i actually was confused whether he was gone when i got up.
retarded.
dreams sometimes show the things that will make you feel the worst.
which btw SUCKS.

sigh. what's the point of geography?
do i HAVE to know about fixed carrying capacity? am i going to die if i don't?

i feel damn tired now.
cos i slept at 8.30 last nite.
when my stupid sister was supposed to wake me up by 9.30
to study!
loser.
she was probably dancing in her room to actually care about me
why can't she be a better sister?
like all those loving ones i sometimes see on the TV.
she's always putting me down and interfering in stuff that don't concern her one bit.
she's the main cause of my depression.
always making me cry for all sorts of reasons.
she has broken my spectacles TWICE.
while fighting and she yanked my specs out and threw it.
making me practically blind.
she always puts on this fake smile when relatives come and pretend she's all great and in front of them, she will start saying things that make me look lower than her. not as intellectual as her.
GO TO HELL bitch.

but of course no matter what, i don't want her to go to hell.
i love her still.
when she actually IS nice.
but when she gets all annoying and bitchy.
she does totally SUCK.

history is still untouched. except for the first 3 pages.
oh im so screwed.
SCREWED i tell you.
total screwed up.
that's how MY life is

i want coldplay X&Y cd!

- anyone care to buy for me? *hint hint*
haha and of course amalina has hinted me to buy her the mcfly its all about you single
i will think about it.
=)
and someone must buy for me ROOSTER! and MARION RAVEN!
i think that person will be my dear daddums
he's very funny sometimes
this is one of the convos we had a few days back

i switch on the radio in the car. and hollaback girl blasts
me: i <3 this song!
dad: what is hollaback girl?
me: er... i dunno
dad: how you listen when you dunno the meaning?
me: its just a SONG dad. its for you listen not to analyse
dad: really? i didn't know that.
me: haha i know.
dad: her voice is horrible. is she a singer?
me: DUH. its a SONG so obviously the voice is the SINGER
dad: oh ok. how can she be a singer? this means even i can become one! her voice is so horrible. what do you think? DAD the singer!
me: *shakes head* no way.
dad: *frowns* FINE.

haha he's funny.
you may not find it funny.
but he's cute la.
right now i hear my mummy and sister debating on sth i know NOT of.
oh wells.
they always debate.

(edited ver.)

fountains of wayne are good.
i like their cd : out-of-states plates
its retarded.
MAUREEN! i love that song!
California sex lawyer is weird but interesting.
Janice's party is funny. who would name a song that?!


M-M-M-M-M-Maureen
You don't know what you do to me
I know you won't be true to me
The least that you can do for me
Is keep it to yourself
I'm so sorry I don't mean to shout
But really I can do without
The details of your days and nights and your thoughts and dreams
Maureen, Maureen, Maureen, Maureen


listening to their cd now.
i need marion raven cd.
here i am is nice.
best of you by foo fighters is NICE.
sugar, we're going down by fall out boy is total rocking shiat.
translation - great


Drop a heart, break a name
We're always sleeping in, and sleeping for the wrong team

We're going down, down in an earlier round
And Sugar, we're going down swinging
I'll be your number one with a bullet
A loaded god complex, cock it and pull it


just now went to LOT1 to meet amalina and liyana.
liyana had her lunch at the thai restaurant with her friend.
while amalina and i decided to stick to the cheapest - MACS.
of course one of the most fattening in the world.
oh wells.
i ready and kicking to start my new workout regime.
from the SEVENTEEN magazine.
not the local one.
the usa one.
it cost me 9.90. but heck.
its a great mag.
the fashion sense there is so much better than the local seventeen.
local seventeen fashion journalists are quite useless.
its so CHEENA and they all like the whole weird boho style.
boho style is nice.
but when they turn it weird, it sucks

i like classic.
like misha barton's style
but of course no money to buy.
i want one of those short jackets.
and i want to buy a vintage top.
and onyx ring.
and a studded belt.
and UGG BOOTS SUCK.

am i talking fashion lang?

hey.
in the library now.
hearing that constipated, haha funny stuffed voice of dear OWL! (a.k.a mrs tan)
she's so loud.
and she comes and tell ama liyana and i that we are loud.
SHEESH.
oh wells

today.
was.
a.
GOOD! day
why?
because! for maths, we're gonna finish spheres tonight! haha as in homework.
for life science, we have finally progressed into ...
EPPENDOFF TUBE & MICROPIPPETTE CRAP!!
for complessons, I HAVE finished my story!
WATERDROPLET WARS : ATTACK OF THE ORANGE HEADS (EPISODE 1)
for history, im finally beginning to pay more attention instead of just talking to sneha/mansi or zone out like a zombie. haha.
for english...
THE MOVIE HOW TO LOSE A GUY IN TEN DAYS! ROCKS!

we din have to watch that wheel whale whatever rider movie! we got to choose. haa thanks mrs lim!
sighh.
oh oh.

we're finally in our new arrangement.
gonna miss tab! but she's near me. within arm distance
sitting next to chloe.
and our class looks so FAMILY now!
comfy comfy.
i feel like buying pink furry pillows to put on each chair.
so nice!
comfy!
haha. and we never got on wih the idea of having a SICKBAY in the classroom.
oh wells.

can't wait for POST dramanite infanta party at orchard.
i think.
i came up with it.
we shall watch fantastic four!
maybe shop a little.
sighh.

right now.
nallamai and i are contemplating whether to skip tamil class or not.
nallamai says: NO! can we just go without finishing homework?
i say: NO! i dun wanna get scolded by HER.
nalla says: but there is a possibility that she may not scold?
i say: there is a HIGH possibily that she will and i am NOT taking chances.
she says: im going.
i say: i dun want to go! i wanna go home and study history! (nerd syndrome)
she says: dun go la
i say: but can we both not go? ask that sec4 indian girl to collect homework for us???
she says: ok let's try
and so we did.
the girl said this: what do you wantme to do? collect from HERRRR?
i say: yeah. if you can that is
she says: CAN YOU PLEASE GO!
haha she's scared ofHER i bet.
oh well

idunwannago!

sighh

-music makes me lose control music makes me lose control
MISSY! haha
i like that song.
lose control from the album"THE COOKBOOK" by missy elliot.
i want to buy GREEN DAY CD!
i want to buy ROOSTER CD!
i want to buy MARION RAVEN CD!
i want to buy BSB CD!
i want to buy XTINA'S CD!
when it comes out thou.

haha bye!
gtg think whether to skip or not.

HEY.
just came back from drama full dress
sorta.
the costume is kinda ... 2@#$*&^_!@
haha.
oh wells.
i just wanna say this to the CAST and CREW of the bdae of infanta play:
im proud of each and everyone of you guys! feel happy that you all pulled it off great today! everyone remembered their lines. everyone acted with great talent! and im so glad all our efforts are finally gonna pay off next friday!!! <3333


haha. wait is there a picture? of me and my sis?
i know i look EW.
and of course people who hate me or wtv will start the whole mockerism, sniggerism thing.
but who cares.
i can't be bothered with immature f***ed up people like them.

syf play rocked babeh!
i like the loraina kerplunk or whoever?
haha was funny.
and i think the idea was so cute!
x))))
haha
my smiley looks like it has multiple chins
haha
oh wells

home ec was kinda annoying today!
the damn pan.
had so so much oil.
sneha (YAY!) and i were trying to put to whatever tau kuah/foo/fu whatever into the pan and then the oil splattered all over!
dammn.
and i din eat the food
cos it went bad
cos i only went home at 6.30
so of course.
it won't be nice.
the chilli sauce had become liquidy like a drink.
SICK!

war of the worlds.
i love war of the worlds.
TOM CRUISE.
=)
haha he's good looking for an old guy.
he's 42 i think.
katie holmes is so PLAIN JANE luh
alamaks.
and ... and .... AND! he gave her a 15carat ring!
ARE YOU NUTS?! YOU'RE PROBABLY GOING TO BREAK UP WITH HER! AND YOU GIVE HER A ONE MILLION DOLLARS WORTH RING?!!!!!

don't you think he's gone bonkers?
and trust me, eiffel tower is so un-romantic
but at 1am, its quite nice. cos no one will be there.
DUH.
haha
but how did he get in?!
hmm...
VIP treatment.

ok whatver.
i might be going to the acsi thingum.
since ama liyana and shee asked me to.
haah oh yeah today
PE! was fun.
got these girls from CHICAGO (yeah babeh!)
from this soccer team called chicago eagles.
yeah.
they taught us all these cool skills.
so fun!
barbie is real nice man.
got her email.
haha
so kiasu fied right?
haha

gtg now.
must watch chinese show
then mug for 3tamil compres.
*SCREAMS!

hey.
just watched A.I (artificial intelligence) on channel 5.
i nearly cried at the last part.
i was tearing.
i dun even get the story.
but the fact that the ROBOTboy wanted to be a REALboy so that his mommy will say she loves him made me cry. i mean he cares about his human mother so much and never got love from her as a normal child would. and the ROBOT 'died' praying to the blue fairy that he would come back as a real boy. and 2000years later aliens find him and resurrect him. and he remembers his past. and his mother. and how he wanted to see her and hear her say she loved him. my god. its just so touching but W E I R D. the love david (the robotboy) possesses for his mother is so limitless that i wonder if i love my mother the same. i mean its such a WOWfactor. but this movie probably confused loads of people. i did not really watch it properly so i got kinda blurred.

but the main message is this : someone who devoted his life, love, mind to someone else but in the end received nothing but memories he would cherish.

sigh. its sad / depressing/ weird.
everything.
but it din win any award i think.
cos its so un-understandable.
and not true. as in robotic 'humans' don't exist.

ok enough of A.I. review.
i haven't done ANY homework.
so technically speaking, im screwed.
but in my mind, i still have time.
cos tomorrow's a HOLIDAY!
hallelujah!
youth day : i love you!

haha gives youth a chance to enjoy their lives.
don't you think?
OMG. i realised now that i have watched secondhandlions before!
haley joel osment IS cute.
i never knew i watched that movie
and i achlee went to the theatre to watch it
im so retarded
haha found some celebrity FAKE xangas.
haha i mean who can't imitate paris hilton, yall?
just keep saying:
that's hot
that's hot
that's hot
that's HOTT!

duh!
haha.
i have so many nice nice avatars now.
of lindsay
of paris
of ashlee
of xtina
of hayden
of adam
of rachel
of chad
haha haley joel osment
he's cute as a kid

but but BUT.
hayden is stil the HOTTEST!
x)
my love will never waver.

sighh.
haley joel osment is SO not popular.
tried finding avatars of him.
couldn't.
HOPELESS la!
haha but he's not bad.
haha watched the last 10minutes of one tree hill today.
so nice!!!
hot chad.
haha he's not that hot.
but quite cute
lala.
im becoming boy crazy.
my sister can't take it anymore.
she's been stuffing pillows into my face to make me shut it.
wait.
was that my dream?
or reality?
haha.
i think dreams la.
ANYWAY.

i will post some cute boy pictures on the blog soon.
maybe i should now!

CHAD MICHAEL MURRAY
haha cute! nice hair man. weird but i can bear with it. (:

HALEY JOEL OSMENT

haha young little boy. he's 17 i think now. din wanna show NEWER pics. he looks weird. haha x)

JAMES LAFFERTY

haha killer-frown guy from ONE TREE HIll. he's 20!! *screams and hollers. haha. he's younger than i expected, which was 25. OOPS :D

ok enuff of pictures.
bye!
must do LIT.
must do lit
must do lit.

HEY! haha
went to melly's house
her dog's so grouchy! x(
kept barking!
haha.
oh wells.
we finished our survey and some of our outline.
but it was not all that productive.
esp with yanshan in her businesswoman pose haha!x)
oh wells.
its okay.
nice to see mel's house
but i wish her dog was nicer!
sighhh.

make poverty history!
go support!


okay i have done my part in this world!
haha.
and i donated like 55cents to some charity today.
pathetic i know.
but i gave away all my coins.
you don't expect me to give them a 10dollar note right?
or a 5dollar one.
no way!
(:
how evill.

EVIL!
that's me.
im evil.
evil i am.
evil is me
evil me am.

okay. utter nonsense.
i was so MALUFIED today.
after pw session, i had to jaywalk across the road to get to my bustop.
so i ran ran ran.
and i saw my bus 77!!
so i ran ran to my bus and what happened was when i climbed on the first step, my shoe got stuck under the step while my toes were ON the step so i fell flat.
the embarrassment *shudders
oh well! at least i got back on my feet fast enuff.
this lady was staring at me.
oops
haha
but i have done this too many times to actually care.

i have to get a grip on myself
and start studying!
i have to do tamil homework and physics and lit tonight!
can't wait for liyana to call me.
she is such a nice friend.
we shall talk till like 12 or 1 at night.
trying to study together.
i dun think it will really work out.
but what the hell.
its worth a try
haha and is like a bonding session.

history in 3rd week.
along with geog.
she better hurry up and teach!
she was absent on friday.
missing TWO! periods.
man i wish she would hurry up on tuesday and cut out all those 'funny' stuff she has to say! please! im so nervous for geog.
and i suck at it!
sighh

goo goo
goooo
i shall watch war of the worlds tomorrow with my papadear!
i bought 8days.
shouldn't have.
quite boring
haha
but the part on jacelyn tay was nice
the guy really looks like tay ping hui from the side!
maybe he's her bf!
hahaha.
weird couple i MUST say.

ohh. i think tyler hilton is KYOOT!
haha.
but hayden <3 is still MY LOVE!
luff!!!
he's so hawt.
what a hawtae!
but everyone seems to be loving him.
i loved him like since dunno when liao la!
sheesh.
i think chad is cute too.
i think max thierot is cute too!
i think billy from gc without makeup is not bad!
hahaa

SHIT!
some relative i never see for like years is now entering the house.
damn it i must say hello and do all the nice stuffs like talk to him.
some old guy with 3 sons who are supposedly cute (according to MOMMY)
like real la.
they weren't even cute when young.
but i played with them.
oh yeah!
one of them i had a crush on like when i was 5?
hahaahaha.
funny.
funny.
so young.
got crush.
tsktsk.
alamaks!
he's IN the house.
oh no.
i dun wanna talk to him.
he will prolly say "oh hi prasanthi! you've become a bigg girl! long time i never see you. how old are you? hahhahah. BLABLABLA"
like i care.
arghx.
mum is calling.
shoots.
its ENTERTAIN-RELATIVES time.
bye

hey.
school has started.
the first week
sucky.
so busy
MONDAY to THURSDAY.
come back late.
damn la.
but i think now i love maths
haha
mensuration IS fun.
but really exhausting.

drama rocks man!
haha.
but being the queen is kinda tiring.
must act all proud, high and authoratative.
and SAD.
haha
serene, you're so sweet
you really teared watching me?!
AH!! so cute.
haha
i bet you're over sensitive
but pls stop asking me to improve on being sad!
i mean
you dun expect me to cry on stage do you?!
no way!
i can't.
maybe i can.
aahhh crap

seperation.
what a miserable state.
confusion.
is what im in right now
feeling alone
feeling so cold
freezing inside is my heart
hard and feelingless is just one part
jealousy deep inside
when fun times play infront of me
its gonna take some time
to overcome and get over and get free
im on one side
they're on another
im in bad shape.
and they are not
my mind's not clear
my heart's in fear
cos one day i know
i will lose out
and that one is known
that's what fate's all about.


sigh.
need to talk
thru a song
haah
that reminds me of stupid rap thing for CME
damn
i know celine and co (HEHE) are doing i think hollaback girl
- a few times i've been around that track. and its not gonna be like that. cos i aint no hollaback girll. i aint no hollaback girll.

YOUTH DAY!
i love you!
gives me one free day.
today came back with ezbel
we were both dozing off in the bus.
so tired man!
haha.
i nearly forgot to wake up
until ezbel patted me
haha
then went home. bathe. ate. watch so little time. and then i SLEPT!
till 7sth
haha
my dad oredi went off for work.
sighh
why does life suck so bad when you don't want it to?

tomorrow is PW day.
hehe.
going to melly's house.
haha
i think our dracula thing went well
at least they laughed at yanshan and me!
haha
*COUGH COUGH oh johnnykins i LOVE you....
and then i die! haha
im lucy
how weird.
yanshan's my fiancee
HAHA.
she's such a skinny one
and tall!
x)

and melissa made a GOOD dracula
but she forgot some stuff.
and ours was so short la.
i mean yeah! like 5 minutes
but its was funny x)
tab said so
haha
yay.
making ppl laugh makes me happy
HAPPY!
reminds me of meiwai and val. (:
im nervous for drama nite
i hope i dun screw up man!
and court shoes are so annoying!
and mine is real high luh.
and huge.
size 9.
some ppl were trying them on
like wanjin dahlia and stacey
siighhh
hehe
that perverted looking caretaker freaked stacey out a hell lot
cos stacey was standing at the edge of the curtains in the sec. hall
and then suddenly that guy turned up behind her.
she screamed.
well sorta!
haha i was so freaked too.
he's so E-W la.
and val told me some stories.
was it val?
maybe...
hahah

- so little time so much to do. i rather spend my day with YOU! and if that day's not enough. then maybe we can stay in touch. im not making plans for tomorrow. for tomorrow. so little time!

haha so little time theme song.
i like it

mr ng is kinda pissed with 2d.
he is right i guess.
we are all to blame
hey! that's the sum 41 song!
omg.
so nice
haha
but sorta not our fault right?
32 ppl side by side. playing tennis?!
no way.
in the sports complex?!
double NO!
i mean there's no space.
ppl keep running across you.
and the ball you serve hits them.
kinda SAD
oh well.
yuen teng and i did 7!
haha
achievement
even with the big ball we couldn't do thatt well.
oh we did 9 or 11.
haha

SIGH.
i miss being bonded class.
like in primary school.
SIGH.

googoogaagaa
i wanna go social day!
but its kinda desperate
like you dun have friends
haah